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Music is my release
Sometimes I can't find the words to say when something is eating me up from within, which is something I have been dealing with since getting sober over 2 years ago... I felt like I was my teenage self all over again, learning how to control my mental illness again... I used to be able to write the words that now flood my thoughts.. but it's one day at a time, so sometimes I use the next best way to feel like I can breathe again.. Music.
Just incase someone else feels this way and needs it to, he's a feeling I feel to often, especially with this dang lockdown going on. I normally isolate myself anyways.. but when you feel like you have lost the chance to make the choice for yourself.. my thoughts are slowing consuming me.... become my own enemy
Every night I lie awake, I know something needs to change, making all the same mistakes, like regret is my middle name, whether I'm up, whether I'm down, it's all on my to turn it around, I could go left, I could right, ain't no walking away from this fight.
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my only enemy is me, I'm up against something I can't be, well I'm good at putting on a show, but in my mind it ain't how it goes, my only enemy is me.
I tried everything I know, nothing ever seems to help, wishing I could take this weight off my shoulder and put it back on the shelf, well I could just run, but I can't hide from this feeling that I'm feeling inside, can't get out, to far in, in a battle that I know I can't win cause,
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