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I thought I was doing so well, staying away from social triggers during this isolation period. I've been working from home for nearly a month now and there hasn't been a lot of oversight due to the chaos of transition.

Today, I was talking on the phone with my boss about a fairly inconsequential situation and she suggested a different way of approaching it. Outwardly, I thanked her for the feedback, but, inwardly, the shaking and the terror and the churning stomach began.

"You had a lapse in judgment again. You can't do that. That's where danger lies."

Now, twelve hours later, I still feel terrible. I am thinking about quitting my job and feeling like I don't want to work tomorrow because I'll just screw everything up. I won't let myself do that because I know this is not coming from a healthy place, but the thoughts are there.

I have had this problem at work for years, with many different supervisors in different organizations. Is there any point at which I will be able to receive feedback in a constructive manner? I discount or distrust positive feedback and I shut down and go into "turtle mode" with negative feedback. How can I get over this?

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I want to get the Stellate Ganglion Block injection to help make PTSD more easier to live with.

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Last night I finally opened up to my boyfriend about my anxiety and what triggers it, but also that I don’t mean to make him unhappy by dealing with me or when im just in one of those moods that I can’t be brought out of....
Right okay? Well today after class I asked him how was his class and if any girls try to flirt with him, and he first ignored the question, but than said no. I thought it was weird so I simply said what ? And he responded with yeah I talked to Jillian ( who has becoming a problem between us). It made me mad so I said idc.. and he ignored me to mess around with his friend. It made me mad he lied but he also seems to fall for her and it stressing me out but also causing more anxiety problems. I don’t know if I should stay made because he has to deal with my issues all the time but of course who wouldn’t be mad? But now I’m at point that I don’t know if it’s good for my health to stay mad or just wait and hold it in. But my honest thoughts are I just opened up to him and I feel like it was a waste a time and it killing me...
But I’m glad that I found a place to let it out and share my thought to people who understand.
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