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° " So I Made Overtime For The 1st Time... I Got Sent Home Early Lolz... Yay Me... My Schedule Has Completely Changed... I Work At 6A.M Off At 3P.M. And Apparently A Customer Made A Complaint Against Me... For Not Letting Them Have Carne Asada On A Diffrent Dish... ? Well TBH I Didn't Know That It Could Be Added With Everything Else On The Menu... Because Nobody Tell's Me Anything... " • Sincerely, ☆☆☆ S.K. ☆☆☆ #Work #Stress

I’m struggling at work bc I can’t complete certain assignments. It’s like I freeze when the time comes. I don’t think management understands.

TW: sh, disordered eating

I had a job interview yesterday which went quite well. It was my first job interview since quitting my job in May and it was for a position that fits well with my knowledge, skills, and experience.

Within an hour of the interview being over, I started rethinking everything I had said and fixating on some details. As the day went, I felt my mood significantly shift downward. It is hard for me to admit this because I feel a lot of shame, but I ordered pizza with full knowledge that it would make me feel worse (food sensitivities) and binged on it.

I kept tearing up and crying last night, and feeling like I'll never be able to handle a normal working life. I've also just started reopening some difficult things in therapy so that doesn't help.

Today, I've stayed in bed all day. My solution to not bingeing on leftover pizza from the moment I woke up was to just not eat anything. This also meant deliberately skipping my morning meds because it should be taken with food. As I started feeling terrible by 2pm, I ate some healthy food and took my afternoon meds.

I have my final depression therapy group session on Monday (week 8) and all I can think about is how I've failed. I was doing pretty well but this weekend is just so much regression and I am so ashamed and upset that I just want to wallow in it instead of using my strategies and coping skills.

I knew my reprieve of several months from the depths of depression wouldn't last, but why did a positive job interview experience lead to this?

I'm posting here because I need to resist the urge to isolate and hibernate.

#CheckInWithMe #letstalkdepression #Work #jobinterview #DisorderedEating #MentalHealth #Depression #Anxiety #Trauma #Isolation

° " So The Other Day A Customer Who I Haven't Seen In Awhile Came Into The Restaurant... And We Talked For A Bit... And My Boss Noticed That My Favorite Customer Was Very Attractive.. So More Customer's Showed Up So I Couldn't Give Him His Order Personally. I Alway's Tend To Customer's That I See Regularly. I Litterly Call Them My Favorite Customer's.. Now This Guy Is Very Nice And Tall Very Goodlooking Etc... But What I Find Funny Is That My Boss. And My Other Female Co-worker's.. Would All Of The Sudden Want To Serve And Take My Customer's Thier Order's To Them.. Listen I Litterly Have Like 3 Regular Men That Specifically Vist To Our Restaurant To Come See Me And Ask For Me... Because They Like How I Treat Them With Kindness.. My Other Co-worker.. The Bully Litterly Doe's The Drive-Thru And She's Verbally And Rudly Abusive To Her Customer's All The Time... So Now I Do Drive-Thru And Front Of The House.. When Needed Lol. These Chick's Can't Put On A Charm Or Be Nice.. And Then They Wonder Why I'm The Popular One. That Customer's Perfer... " ° ~ S.K. #Work

° " I Was Put On Patio All Day And Cut Up Lard Most Of The Day... And This Is Going To Sound Wierd But.. I Found It Totally Relaxing And A Stress Breaker.. And The Whole Day Was Just Cleaning In And Out Side Patio.. And Very Little Cashiering.. I Also Find It Funny.. Whenever My Bosse's Boss Come's To Check The Store. I'm Alway's On Patio.. I Guess Other People's Cleaning Skill's Are Not Very Good.. HA!! HA!! But I Have A Great Day One More Day To Go And I'm Off On Sunday.. Oh And I'm Trying To Set Up An Interview With Macdonald's Next Lolz... " ° Sincerely, ▪︎ Skaoi Kvitravn ▪︎ #Work

• " So... Apparently I Was Scheduled To Work Today... But What I Understood When I Talked To My Boss Was.. That I Was Off Today ( Wednesday ) And Off Sunday... Now She's Telling Me That Off Actually Off On ( Thursday ) And Sun.. Like Communicate Correctly.. So I Got Into A Fight With Her This Morning... I Had Already At 6am Ordered My Grocerie's. So I Wasn't Going To Cancel That... Let's See I Sense That Someone Will Not Show Up Tomarrow Anyway's.. And I Will Get Called In.. I Even Asked Just To Switch The Day's.. And I Got A NO!... Whatever People Need To Be More Clearer About Thier Scheduling... She Can Be Mad All She Want's I Asked Her Twice If These Were The Correct Day's Because She Didn't Print Out The Schedule. Yet... " • #Annoyed ▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎ S.K. ▪︎▪︎▪︎▪︎