It’s become clear that this whatevership has to come to an end. It’s the most toxic relationship that I’ve ever been in and it’s never going to change. You have to cut it off completely is the only way a narcissist will get it. For so long I’ve endured abuse after abuse for the privilege of this person noticing me. What I didn’t realize is that this person likes when I’m in crisis and he can play the big white savior but the savior isn’t invested in my well being he’s invested in my perpetual crisis and will facilitate one so that he can get his fix of look at me how good I am. This is a __ship that should’ve never happened. I was warned to not ever date this person. He’s incapable of any type of relationship other than a toxic one. He only dates unavailable men. Married men, committed men, closeted men, toxic men etc. He’s 64 and is miserable because he doesn’t know who he is. I see him clearly and I don’t want anymore, this September will mark the end of this toxic ship and I won’t ever be coming back not in anyway shape or form. We’re Done, so done we need a new word for done. #Toxic #relationship #narcisstic #Abuse #gaymen #Trauma