Gettingthroughtheday

So this is me today, about an hour ago. Backstory before this: I made myself get up in the morning, ate breakfast even when my stomach didn't work, got outside to do some sports exercises and yoga. I knew it's not getting better (from saturday when it started again.) when doing yoga I barely kept myself from starting to cry. After that I went for walk with my 8 years old dog Aras. And when I just let him run by himself I just sat down on ground and hugged my knees. Sat there for few minutes in silence and Aras just came to me. When I saw him coming to me I even said sorry to him, that he shouldn't take care of me after those words I just broke down and started crying. Aras just pressed his body more against my legs and just stood there protecting me, waiting for me to be able to stand up and when I was able to do that, he waited for me to get his leash, he got the other end in his mouth snd pulled me to go home...
From it he probably might seem as a therapy dog, but no one ever trsined to be one. He's just my best friend and part of my soul. I think that if he wasn't with me I couldn't get through this by myself. #Depression #CheckInWithMe #gettingthroughthis #Gettingthroughtheday

An hour late for work, appt after I can’t miss to make up my time. Couldn’t shower. My pits smel. So much pain. Could barley move from the bed. Problems. Pain. Severe Fatigue. Anxiety. Clumsy. Confused. Hungry.
Holding onto God for my hope. I have to believe. I have to trust. He can when I cannot.

Sharing a verse that really spoke to me this morning. Will try to go back to it throughout the day. I will choose to try to believe it. Hard to believe good can happen when you swim in a sea of sadness and struggle, but this is my choice. The Holy Spirit help me now in Gods will. God Bless all my sisters and suffering brothers on this site this day. God loves you (telling myself that too when I say it to you😅) #Gettingthroughtheday . 🙌😘