Gloomy

And people wonder why ever one is so damn depressed here..

I'm kinda doing my own self- reflection until I can get into see a therapist and I've noticed for a while that I get a little down when there is nothing really planned during the weekends. I get almost lost on how to entertain my kids when my husband works on Saturdays. I know there is plenty to do and I do find ways to fill the day but it still doesn't take away the dread I get on Fridays.

My family is really small and there aren't cousins my kids can go play with and not many neighborhood kids outside either. I always have this pressure to entertain my kids. I don't want them glued to electronics so I get us outdoors or I invite some of their friends over.

I think I get this way because it reminds me that I'm not close with anyone in my family and it makes me sad.

I'm trying to work thru these emotions and get to the bright side of the situation.

for the past couple of days the weather has been dark and gloomy. usually on days with sunlight my depression doesn't feel as sharp. I made it through most of the day. so I'm happy. does anyone else feel the same way about dark weather?