So the other day at being yelled at by my kid and husband I said there comes a time when you stick enough knives in a back tht you have to stick one in the front out of mercy, I mean who would scream at me in A Water Is Wide, Sarah Jewel Indigo song, and who would scream Fuck you in her mother's face and then come home with a Johnny Cash shirt, I'm sorry I don't like Johnny Cash anymore I tolerate James Morrison a bit better, Shit, I who have no clothes have only my dreams, and a headache, broken heart and believe me a lot of people have killed themselves for less, not so stupid crazy love, faithful wife, maybe leave my head alone, it's already aching, burnt onion thai and all, abuse and suicide are worse evils than money, although caused sometimes by it, we could all think like we're in a commune, not take each other's lives, contribute to the whole, teach music Schneebly, ironic how Die, meaning to die, to cause death, she died, he died, they die, means Gimme in Russian, yeah sure you fucking sappers of my identity, my emotions, my soul, my freedom, my family, my healthcare, my marriage and now my daughter, whaterver you want, take everything I have and more, for you take my life, I would have given it whole for you to mold as you wished, now it's gone, so f ing sorry, #Depression #Lonliness #Abuse #Suicide #Greed #Loss #Grief