GymAnxiety

.... & her understanding of what self love, self compassion, self confidence & self respect looks like!

Growing up, love wasn't shown the way it "should" be shown amongst family. Amongst a mother & her daughters. Hugs weren't given out once a certain age of daughters was reached. "I love yous" weren't as meaningful as they should sound. Praise wasn't given out when daughters did something amazing.

Mama was battling her own demons & it showed a lot once daughters reached an understanding to life age. Mama didn't show the love, compassion, confidence & respect to herself. So, of course, her daughters weren't taught the proper knowledge for loving themselves.

Now, as the daughters get older & become adults, their vision of self love, self confidence, self worth & self respect are not what they'd like. Looking in mirrors is hard for one. Showering their confidence with positivity is ruined by negative. Over thinking to try & look "good" like others ruins ones love for themselves.

Trying to do better. Boost one's confidence up. Show themselves love. Shower their energy with compassion has been ones goal for a while now. Each day is different than the last. Hoping the next is better. Mirror talk with oneself is a constant battle yet the strength afterwards is extraordinary.

Wanting to boost that respect & confidence higher for their mental health with gym activities has been a goal for some time, but when the negative voices attack the confidence at full speed, they crumble & let the unnecessary win. Mirror "fear" wins. Comparison to others & their strengths wins. Over thinking, over analyzing wins. Anxiety wins the battle.

When one just wants to heal themselves from what was "taught" growing up, yet the strength of that lesson is stronger than what they envisioned.
How does one get out of THIS cycle? How can one boost that confidence higher than the expected? Wanting to fulfill the inner child's love for themselves [past present & future self] is key yet feeling like a failure is keeping the door locked. How can one keep their word to themselves to do better. To stay consistent. To remain committed. When all they know is self sabotage. Self "hate."

Anxiety is ones story while trying to heal is their chapters! Words of positivity try to fulfill those sentences while negativity is the punctuation. Their story of breaking generational cycles is far from over. They WILL prevail & be fueled with confidence love compassion & worth!

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..... has not been my greatest achievement in life. It's been a work in progress. Exhausting yet worth it.

Therapist tells me to do better. I try.

Self-Love is a never ending cycle for me. Since childhood. It's been neglected.

Wanting to do better. Feel better. See better. It's all been a goal this last yr. Of course I have my down days. It's going to happen along this healing journey. I'm not perfect.

Wanting to get more active & in shape is something I've wanted to do for awhile. Again, with the lack of love & confidence I have in myself, it's been a huge distraction from wanting to do better.

Gym anxiety, it's real for me. I've been yet never commit. Negative irrational thoughts fulfill the time rather than push-ups & treadmill. Wanting to stop those thoughts has been a struggle.

Therapist gives me lectures & handouts of stopping the thoughts yet they're like eff those helpful tips. We're gonna do what we know how.

How can one get away from those thoughts & focus on the gym life? I know & want the benefits it has for Mental Health.

The struggle is non stop. Unfortunately.

#Anxiety #Depression #PTSD #Trauma #GAD #Insomnia #Healing #Therapy #GymAnxiety