A work in progress…
To anyone whom becomes close to me:
I need you to understand, that sometimes I may seem difficult. My traumatic experiences in life have done a number on me! Who I am today, is not who I used to be or even want to be. My feelings are easily hurt. I have a hard time with trust, I put up a wall whenever I feel slightly unsure about someone. Sometimes I fight to get out of bed. I am trying to adjust to living life without my kids close to me…and most days I struggle with understanding who I even am anymore! If you take the time to get to know me, I’m fun, loving and sarcastic! Nothing makes me happier than knowing I’ve made a difference in someone else’s day. I love wholeheartedly and firmly believe in second chances. I need honesty, I need reassurance of your intentions with me. I might even seem needy at times. If I go silent, it because I’m extremely hurt or unsure about something. I like to isolate at times but others I am too socialable. I have been known to cry easily, especially reminders of my losses. I absolutely hate that when I get angry I start to cry…. that embarrasses me! I feel it shows weakness. I need to find myself again, I crave stability and don't care to keep people around who cannot accept me for all that I am. Wishy-washy relationships only further harm my healing. I need people around me who are willing help me grow. That’s me a work in progress.#Healing #Trauma #PTSD #Anxiety