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I had been doing good. For the first time in years I was teetering on 1 complete week pain free. I had minimum pain in a spot but to me that was no huge deal. I had a nerve ablation done for each side of my back and I was feeling good. The Dr. had said my back muscles were strong and to start exercises. I decided to try swimming as water therapy has always made me feel a little better. My goal was to learn how to swim, do water exercises for less pressure on my joints and to lose weight. The very first day I try my back arched as it began to float and kick and snap. I could feel my back popping and stretching but this happens any time I flex, even on the bed. I thought it's a simple stretch and pull so I should be alright. The first night I had no pain at all. The second night was ok but the third morning I woke up stiff and have been in pain since. I know that my facet joints popped but I thought the ablation had killed all them nerves. Now I'm in pain and I don't know how I'll get relief with both procedures just being done. I can't take this. #laminectomy #BackPain #DegenerativeDiscDisease #Imworried #imscared

I'm considering weight loss surgery. I know it's a lot of hard work and dedication but I need it. I'm ready to be healthy and do more things in life. It might help with my back problems and hopefully I can cut all this medication. Only thing is my insurance doesn't cover it and I have no idea if I'll get approved for financing. I'm going to pray about it cause this might be my last chance to get healthy. #bariatricsleeve #weight loss #backproblems #chronic pain #Imworried #imscared

The big day is only a week ago. I have mixed feelings after getting several different opinions. I'm going to pray that I make the right choice. I just don't know why this is stressing me out. I know what I don't want. This can't be how it goes down. I just want to be able to be successful in life. I want a long career. I just want to be free to move like normal again. My prayers will be answered. I just have to stay strong. #Lumbarfusion #back surgery #imscared #Imworried

Everyone I know is begging me not to get this fusion. I will eventually need it but my heart says stay strong and be happy with the laminectomy. Right now isn't the time to be rushed. I can bounce back from this but not a major surgery. I'm scared and overweight. My gut tells me to pass this surgery. My pain tells me to get it done. I can control the pain now but the minute I get the fusion it's game over. I would rather do pain management until the very end cause I know how big this step will be. I don't want to begin a series of major back surgeries. I'm 38 and that's young but I need help making a decision. I need pain relief but right now it's in short bursts or days. It's not as bad as it was before the laminectomy. I just need some advice.
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