Dear members, I have been fighting with depression, anxiety, panic attacks and claustrophobia. I have a planned c section on 12 Jan 2020. I'm very nervous, anxious and emotional at this moment because I will be leaving my only son for the first time . My husband is very supportive but I don't want him to feel like after all his support I still unable to control my emotions and thinking. I feel like I may panic on operation table. My claustrophobia and feeling of breathlessness will make the process extremely difficult for me. But I am fighting from my mind, my thinking and emotions. I want to win, I want to come back safe and healthy for my son and for the coming new born. I am extremely worried, nervous, anxious and panicky. I want to cry for indefinite period. Want to hold my son but don't want to make him anxious too . My case is not complicated, but I have so many fears, like thanatophobia. I want to be hopeful and cheerful for the new baby and new life. But my mind and emotions don't let me be happy. I want to be fine, I want to see my kids happiness and successes in life. I want to raise them healthy, happy and safe with my husband. But I am crying I don't know why. Today, when I was meeting the anesthesiologist I wanted to cry endlessly. I want to hide somewhere and cry just cry. I don't know what is this feeling. I feel embarrassed and crazy about my emotions. I feel small and inferior, I don't want to seem broken in front of my kids. I want to win I want to come back home with my kids... :'( #Anxiety #PanicAttacks #lackofconfidence #Claustrophobia #Thanatophobia #breathlessness #Inferioritycomplex #EmotionalHealth #Depression