I always felt like what I was going through is invalid because other people have it worse than me so I have a hard time opening up about what I'm going through. My long distance boyfriend of 8 years broke up with me last month. He was the love of my life and we planned out our entire life together already. We werent able to see each other for more than a year due to the pandemic, so when I finally got to reunite with him after missing him so much he broke up with me. At first he blamed me for it, gaslighted me, manipulated me and made me feel like I was the burden and to blame. So much lies just being said. more than a week later I found out he had an affair for 2 months already. I confronted him about it but he blocked me on every social platform and i never heard from him ever since. Before, during and after the breakup -- I was put in a period of daily stress and anxiety for 4 weeks straight that I never was used to experiencing. I'd have only an hour of sleep no matter how many sleeping pills i took, I didnt eat, couldnt function. i felt like a robot. there were so much triggers everywhere then i would have anxiety attacks. feeling of betrayal, disbelief and not worthy all at once. almost 2 months since the break up and I still am trying to pull myself out of this dark place, fighting the anxiety and depression really is a struggle especially during the pandemic. The mind is indeed so so powerful and the daily struggle and battle with myself to counter my thoughts, my triggers, the trauma, the anxiety and depression really is mentally exhausting. Anyone out there whos been through this and has made it out whole?

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