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Hi, my name is EH8988eh.
#MightyTogether . If I’m being fully honest, I think I view myself like the giant in a story.
Not the beautiful girl the misunderstood one. The big, angry, almost monstrous character that people fear or misunderstand until someone finally loves them enough to see the softness underneath.
Because underneath all of it, I do have the same softness the sweet girls have. I love deeply. I care deeply. I want tenderness, romance, safety, gentleness.
But I think growing up, my mother made femininity feel unsafe for me. Her words, actions, and judgments slowly pulled it out of me until I became hard in places I was supposed to stay soft.
So now I think I move through relationships carrying both people inside me at once:
the girl who desperately wants love, and the angry giant who learned not to expect it.
And because I’m still searching for the kind of love and emotional safety I never fully received growing up, I sometimes tolerate silence, inconsistency, or emotional distance longer than I should because some part of me is still hoping to finally be chosen gently.
