Some kinds of tiredness don’t go away with sleep.
We sleep, we wake up, we have a shower, we pray, we wear our clothes, go to the work, answer people, try to continue the day and do what we have to do… and still, something inside feels tired in a deeper way,
This tiredness that only those who lived and felt it can understand it and how it feels when you’re physically exhausted, living on antidepressants, sedatives, and taking at least 3 types of medicines just to continue the day and keep waking and however it’s still not that easy to continue because despite that we still have that quiet and heavy tiredness the kind that sits in the chest and follows you through the day
Sometimes we feel that we’re not even looking for happiness, sometimes we’re just looking for a little relief even for few moments , a softer day, a calmer mind or even a moment where our hearts are not fighting everything at once.
But even like this, we still try, we still show up, and there is still something in us that believes things can become lighter.
Maybe not all at once.
Maybe not soon.
But little by little.
The only thing that describes that is the feeling which we feel once we finish the day, have a shower, pray again and before going to sleep we feel thankful that the day had ended peacefully even if it was hard and felt unbearable but we feel thankful than it passed and ended by God’s mercy and God’s mercy only not by the medicines or because we’re strong enough naturally, we passed it by the strength which God put in our hearts, souls, physic to continue and keep carrying every thing without collapsing
So if today you are exhausted in a way that no one can see, I understand.
And if all you did today was survive silently, that still counts.
And life continues as long as the earth turn around and love continues even without us even without you, all the tyrants of history one day lost the war they burst with glory now they're six feet under the earth
But since we haven’t ever been a tyrants, we haven’t ever killed anyone or even thought to hurt anyone we’ll live, love and we’ll keep insisting to live and love life as much as we can and nothing lasts forever and ever the dawn will come the spring will start, our souls will bloom and we’ll be who we want and we’ll stay ourselves under any circumstances whether they liked it or not even if everything tried and decided to kill us we as well decided and insisted to live and love and regardless how long will it take finally we’ll be forever and ever the winners and the whole world is for us and it’s God’s will and promise for those who have been suffering since ever
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