Hi, my name is MiaMya. I'm here because I have a pretty significant case of PTSD and associated anxiety. I've had a hard time getting a therapist who seems qualified with what has been deemed as pretty significant trauma. I'm not really wanting to dredge up my background but I will give a few things to give you an idea. I was almost murdered by aan that broke into my home in the middle of the night when I was 16; and, at the age of 41 I was raped by aan who set out to stalk me for a decade. I've not received much help from law enforcement or mental health providers. I've had to pretty much try to figure out a way of navigating much of this by finding a way to cope on my own. Some days and weeks and months are better than others and then there are periods where I just feel overwhelmed by it. I've tried several therapist. I had one for 11 years and she was amazing but she retired. Since then, I've encountered a few less experienced therapists that simply would just look at me and looked, quite frankly, lost as to what to do. I have always been very direct and honest and open about what has happened and my attempts at coping with it all. I had one male therapist jokingly refer to me as a feral cat after I opened up and expressed anger at the lack of justice. I was simply dumbfounded at the lack of sensitivity with such a comment. As such, I am hoping to find others that may have been through trauma in their lives who understand what it feels like to have your bubble burst and not be able to live a trivial life with worries about simple things. I find that people wander around in protective bubbles never thinking anything bad will ever happen to them and if something bad happened to you either put yourself in harms way or belong in another bubble or they are overly curious. I just don't feel like I can relate to u traumatized people most of the times and I hate to admit that. It just feels like I have involuntarily become part of a unique club that I never signed up for and that I can't unenroll from. I don't know if any of this makes sense?
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