Today I missed work again. I can’t help feeling that I’m only as good as my attendance and my attendance has suffered at work recently. It has me very upset with myself and I’m trying to let that go. I feel like I’ve never struggled like this before. 😢 Has anyone else ever struggled with work attendance before?
I spent the whole weekend in a panic trying not to be anxious and to recover so that I could make it through work all week. I’ve been starting to miss work more often and to the point where I foresee it being a problem. (I lost as I missed today.)
So I make in to the job site hurting and tired— everyone else is “tired” though theirs is obviously different. Anyway, I’m from St. Louis, MO and everyone is crazy about baseball and hockey— the Blues could win the cup. I don’t drink and I don’t get too excited for much— sports included.
So I sit down at the break table and the foreman starts asking if people are going to show up on Thursday— due to the Blues playing on Wednesday night and the assumption they may be drunk or too tired. After several coworkers saying they wouldn’t be there, it got to me and I was like— Why would I not be here Thursday?
Anyway people upset me. Not to mention having to listen to the crazy amounts of money people part with for these things. I have a family to support. Got screwed out of pay for years. And could tell someone where I am without any help offered and worse yet— they almost all have the nerve to say they understand or “me too”. #ChronicIllness #Fibromyalgia #ChronicFatiqueSyndrome #SocialAnxiety #MissingWork
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