Mummyworries

I love Bailey more then life itself however having a break from being a mum 24/7 is heathy right!? Since having Bailey I class a break as having a hot bubble bath for more then 5 minutes, or having a hot cup of coffee without it being knocked of the side or out of my hand. As lovely as that sounds, this doesn’t happen very often. But you know what these things are not classed as a break, before having Bailey that was just my normal life.

Yes I know people will say “That’s what you get for having a baby” But no I completely disagree. I think it is totally normal to want a break away from being a mum and taking time to myself.

By me doing this it doesn’t mean I love Bailey any less, it means there is a healthy balance between taking time for myself and being a mummy.

Being able to have a hot bath, drinking a hot drink whilst it is actually hot, reading a few chapters of a book, painting my nails, doing my hair. There are just so many things I could do whilst taking a break.

Being able to take time to yourself is a really important, heathy part of parenthood. Please do not feel guilty for wanting a few minutes to yourself.

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I think the worse thing about living with mental and physical illnesses when you’re a mum is the uncontrollable guilt.
I don’t know about you, but my wee man is full on! He needs my attention most of the day which means I have to pick and choose wether I use my hours tending to him or wether I use them cleaning the house. In saying that, it’s more him who gets to pick. He chooses the attention every day.

There’s no clean dishes but dinner has been cooked.
There’s crumbs all over the floor but food in his belly.
There’s toys everywhere but he’s learnt how to knock over towers and build them up again.
There’s trails of water through the house but he’s getting on top of sensory issues.

The list goes on and on. I’m tired and I’m frustrated, most days I don’t even feel like I have the right to be. I made him, I made the choice to be a Mother! So why am I finding it so hard?
No matter how hard I try, I still feel myself failing every single day. I still feel so guilty.
I feel like there’s too many hours in a day but not enough time for me to get everything done. I plan to do everything while he sleeps, then find myself sleeping on the couch the second he dozes off. When is it not okay to sleep when he sleeps anymore?
When does the mum guilt subside? Will I ever feel like I’m doing an okay job?
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Have a flash back from an operation. He went white and sweaty, dry heaving, first running then he sat still staring at the wall. Lips blue, dripping sweat from his forehead but white as a sheet. Sitting is something he don’t well. He just sat there, he shood me away, didn’t want anything. About 10 minutes he started to move around again. I am new to all of this my heart hurts watching him have a pain in attack. #PTSD #PanicAttack #Mummyworries