NICUMOM

I just wanted to throw this thought out for others like me. My son is a rainbow baby, a baby born after a pregnancy or infant loss. He was our miracle baby, born after infertility treatment. He was life flighted less than 24 hours old and spent time in the NICU. Since then, (he's 5 months old next month) I've been dealing with awful anxiety. In the beginning it was depression, then psychosis, now anxiety but no depression or psychosis. It's hard. I love my baby so much, and I'm so happy to have in my life; but i still cry every day. This too shall pass, i tell myself.....YOU ARE NOT ALONE. Postpartum Anxiety, , and are so much more common than we know because people are afraid to speak out. Its not uncommon, its not your fault. Ask for help if you need it, don't be ashamed or afraid. ❤
#CheckInWithMe

My now 8 year old, was born ag 28 weeks gestation. He was a micro....2lbs. 1 oz. The NICU was bot a terrible place and the doctors and rbe nurses did an amazing job. My son shouldnt be with us right now, and he is....and I am and will forever be grateful for that. I will forever be altered by the experience, the tears flow every time I see a commercial for an upcoming hospital show where they depict a micro preemie, they flow every time i get a message from the teacher about my sons behavior in school. The tears flow every time I see a photo of my miracle child when he was attached to all the wires and the machines, the beeping comes flooding back to me and I remember the oxygen machine and tanks and the apnea monitor we had always on him for 3 months after he was released. There are no words to express the heavy emotional and physical toll it takes to have a child prematurely.....specially when it is unplanned and the only explanation you have is that your body just couldn‘t do it. I have 2 older boys, both of them went to term.....but for this one....my last he and I both are the products of amazing medical advances. Preeclampsia and placenta previa.....I am so grateful to have my son, but will NEVER be the same after his birth