Being I live the day to day life of Bipolar, Social Anxiety, being a recovering addict, that also went through some very traumatic experiences that I never deserved to have happen to me & I thought I was getting better w/ my CPTSD, but than a couple of nights ago I had bad dreams about my past Trauma all night! Not a restful night of sleep at all! & Than with my Bipolar symptoms out of control lately, this is just my life right now! & Than I can't hardly eat bcuz of my stomach issues & my life's been a big mess lately! I've been isolating, I have realized I truly have no real friends in my life besides y'all! My so called "Bff's" keep texting me about drugs & they know I'm getting my life together! I feel bad for my 1 BF but she's letting the other toxic friend we have take her right back down with her & I'm so sad bcuz I just got her back again after years, but I refuse to let that negative toxicity in my life! I already have enough going on w/out friend's that are supposed to be my BFFs & they're just trying to drag me back down with them & I'm not going 😉#BipolarDisorder #nograyareas #ManicEpisodes #DepressiveEpisodes #noshame #CPTSD #recoverywarrior #TraumaSurvivors #Anxiety #EmpathsUnited #IBS #ChronicPain #RareDiseases #Noroomfortoxicenergy