overthinking

Hi. I suffer from severe anxiety issues and it is unbearable and exhausting. The overthinking about things that even didn't happen and getting anxiety from things unrelated to me is what I go through every second of my life. I am trying hard to change this but I am unable and defeated. I hope someday I will be just OK.
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i made a couple of great friends on here to talk to and open up to..im worried that i might have said or did something wrong and the fear of abandonedment has overwhelmed me..i haven't heard from them in a day or two..we usually keep in touch every day..im going crazy with the what if's..im overthinking it knowing i shouldn't..any advice would help..ty

On Saturdays I can feel the anxiety start to slowly creep up on me. I try to ignore that feeling. I then always try to entertain myself or do something special like going to eat in a restaurant. It feels like running away from my anxiety.

Once I am back home and it‘s night time it feels like a switch has been turned. It starts to feel like I am wrapped in a blanket of anxiety. Sundays probably are the worst days for me.

It is a pain to get out of bed. Why would I want to get out in the first place? I am most likely going to spend the rest of the day there anyways. My bed feels like a trench. But what should I do? What is the point in all this? I feel like I can not feel anything. I am looking at the clock. I am mad about myself for not doing anything on this Sunday where I have free time.

I am mad about how time is passing. I count every hour that passes. Yet I somehow still want that day to be over as fast as possible. „Oh! Another hour has passed, well it is too late to start doing anything now. What a shame!“ I think to myself. But what would I want to do? I honestly do not know.

I feel like I am rotting. I feel like I am just waiting. I also want to feel happy. Oh where is that feeling. I honestly can just hope that things will get better and that I just have to keep fighting on the dark side. Is it all my fault? Am I responsible for how I am feeling?

I stuff myself with unhealthy food. I can somehow feel something. Exhaustion is the title for everyday. I sleep but I do not feel like I slept.

I am overthinking so much about the people I like. I think, suppose and assume so much about the people I like. But is it even worth thinking so much about them? Do they even like me?

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