Wellness Wednesday: Overwhelmed With Diabetes
I’m new here
I came for support. I am trying so hard in my marriage but I feel like I am always failing. I have anxiety, depression, possibly on the spectrum, possibly BPD. Things really blew up during Covid and now I can’t get it right again. I am on meds and I love my therapist, but it seem no matter how hard I try, think things through. and learn, I am always wrong. I want to fix my relationship, and am not internet in leaving or separating. I just need support on the days that are particularly hard. #overwhelmed #Marriage #Anxiety #hopeless
It just hit me at work at the end of a rough work day that so many of the symptoms and problems I am having right now are pointing towards a bad prognosis where I could lose my hearing, use of my hands and possibly my legs, and eyesight, which would make me have to give up my career that I LOVE. It’s so very overwhelming and I have no idea who to talk to about it. I really found and have my dream job. I don’t ever want to lose it, but I do know that at some point there will come a time where I cannot do it anymore due to my chronic illnesses. I guess I buried it deep down before and now with having some bad flares it’s bubbling up to the surface. I’m scared and angry and a little depressed. I know this community will understand. #ChronicIllness #ChronicPain #CrohnsDisease #BadDay #overwhelmed
I'm super scared. I really am looking forward to all of these things, but I feel so anxious.
I'm basically going to move out (student dormitory, only at home on holidays) and I'm going to visit a new school (that's the reason I'm moving). That means:
-I will have more dance classes with completly new dance teachers in new studios with new dance classmates
-new living place
-new living area
-new people everywhere
-new responsibilities, like beeing completly alone responsible for cleaning, feeding myself, doing the groceries, financial organisation, ...
-working for my mental wellbeing (starting therapy for the first time)
And I don't like changes. Some people maybe wouldn't believe this because I'm very flexible. But I'm still really not into the idea of changes (this confuses myself).
Some of those changes are great, for example it means a way less stimulating environment (small town instead of a big city). But it still means new enviroment. I'm also super scared of failing. I could just... not living up to the expectations of
... somebody, I guess? I don't even know, I mean, they could be just my own expectations but I don't think that I have high expectations onto myself. Or do I?
#expectations #movingout #changes #anxious #SelfDoubt #overwhelmed
Any excercise tips? #Fibromyalgia
Trying to stay in shape but I’m gaining weight and losing muscle mass. I’m exhausted all the time from #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis and #Fibromyalgia and the muscle pain has been so awful for the last several months. I drag myself to work around noon and then collapse back at home at 6 and hope that my bosses don’t notice that I’m not even managing to work half days. I feel useless and like a weight on society and the last thing I have left is this imperfect body and I just want to keep it in as good condition as I can but I don’t see how I can possibly excercise through the pain and exhaustion. This flare won’t go away. I’ve been looking for a good (free) yoga app that has more gentle yoga. I had been trying to build up from stretching to yoga to barre to Pilates but as soon as I try more intensive yoga or barre my body gives out. The pain in my legs has kept me from getting out and walking. There’s no public pools where I live so I can’t do water excercise. I’m lost and don’t know what to do. My spouse is overwhelmed trying to care for me. I hate this. #MyalgicEncephalomyelitis #Fibromyalgia #ChronicPain #Workout #Advice #overwhelmed
has this happened to anyone else?
i haven’t been able to take my anxiety/panic medication in a few days because I can’t remember where i put it and I don’t know if this is related or not but this morning my right arm was hurting really bad and it got to the point where my chest and/or my lung is hurting. it hurts to breathe, and move my arm. can this be due to anxiety/panic disorder or something else? #Anxiety #PanicDisorder #AnxietyMedication #AnxietyAttack #medicalhelp #overwhelmed
Stress at Work #overwhelmed
My boss is away sick again and it's just me in the office. This time of year is extremely busy and I am so stressed. I just want to curl up in a ball under my desk and cry and then take a nap. I'm already getting super anxious about her three week holiday in August.
I'm trying to focus on one task at a time, but the phone keeps ringing and bringing me new urgent situations.
I'm chewing some intensely minty gum and drinking very cold water to try to help me stay present and focus, but I'm not coping super well.
I’m laying in bed crying uncontrollably. I want to have a good weekend. Small obstacles are insurmountable. My dog pulled me down this morning during a walk. My neighbor got him but I was crying hard, and it was embarrassing. My dog has to be seen by the vet to get heart worm pills, but he will not get in the car, so we didn’t go. I have asked people for help many times. My house is a mess. I’m laying on pee sheets and there are more stacked in the hallway. I need help moving my lawnmower so that I can work in the yard. I don’t have energy. I keep trying but failing. I’m by myself- I have to do everything to sustain my life and take care of the house and pets. Work FT, pay for bills, gas, and tolls. Make appointments and fill prescriptions, fight with insurance when things aren’t covered. I have too many bad days for all this to be sustainable. I need help- I tell my family that all the time, but they don’t do anything. I know it’s not their responsibility, but what can I do? I go to therapy and dr appts, take my meds, manage to work. I need more help but there’s nowhere and no way to get it. So I’ll just keep sinking until another “good” day comes. Thanks for reading.
I was in a car accident yesterday. I'm so mad at myself. I was so stupid. It was just a bump but I got a ticket (which I deserved), and that messed with my OCD. I don't want to get a lawyer and go to court again! There should be an easier way to deal with this. My boyfriend is annoyed with me. What an exhausting day. I'm getting drowsy, but I'd hoped to get things done tonight. I'm so hot. The police officer saw the mess in my car. 😣
I haven’t posted about my struggles in a long time, but have wanted to for ages. I can’t take trying to get through my life and problems by myself anymore, and I really need support right now. The past two years have been the worst for me ever regarding my mental and physical health, and I’m worn down so far it’s hard to imagine getting up again. I have bipolar 2, ADD, PTSD (untreated), chronic pain, chronic fatigue, and I lost my Dad in 2020 so my grief is unbearable on top of all of the other stuff. I’ve also lost over 50 pounds in the past year or so without trying, and so far none of the doctors I’ve seen know why.
I don’t have much support beyond you guys and my bff, so I feel like I have to go through all of this by myself. I don’t have a therapist yet, but have been looking for one because I don’t know how to handle all of my emotions or all that’s happened to me. When I lost my Dad I fell headfirst into overeating, and now I have a serious problem with it, so I’ve discovered OA and am looking forward to getting involved with that. But life is very lonely right now, and I realized the other day that unlike many people I don’t have a spouse or children or grandchildren or close girlfriends, nor am I close to the few remaining family members I have. I’ve never felt so alone in my life. And I’m someone who usually enjoys being alone. But when you have multiple issues and no one to help you its “too alone”. I feel like everything is on my shoulders, and there isnt any one I can count on to help me. If tje pets need to go to the vet, if the house is out of control, if the lawn needs to be mowed, if I have a scary doctors appointment, if I’m sobbing my heart out over Dad, if I’m unable to sleep because of anxiety, whatever—I have to handle it by myself. Im so tired there aren’t any words, and I don’t know what to do anymore.