It’s been a while since I’ve posted. I’ve been doing good with managing my depression. But, lately I feel like I’m slowly going backwards. I’m at a point in my life where I just don’t care about anything anymore. I’m only contacted when necessary. Why? I’m tired of always be the friend that wants to help you, check on you, or just say hi. But my “friends” my “family” can even do that. It’s like as of right now my heart doesn’t have anything left to give but to worry about myself. It’s to a point where I’ve stopped going to social media and stopped contacting the “people” that say they “care” about me. On top of that, I finally let my guard down and I gave someone my heart and in return I was ignored, humiliated and left on the floor in a million pieces in the cold (not literally, just how I felt) right before my birthday. All I got a week later was “I forgot to wish you a happy birthday”. You didn’t forget you just didn’t care. You don’t tell someone you want to spend your life with them and do that. Yet, I was the one apologizing. It’s not easy to erase memories of someone you truly loved. Now, I’m having flare ups back to back. When will the pain stop? I’m at my breaking point. I’m mentally and physically tired. I just want to get back to a place where I can say I’m truly happy where I smile for no reason. My heart it huge, pure, and full of love. I know my worth but it sucks that others don’t see it sometimes. I need the old me back.
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My doctor is convinced that I have a auto immune/rheumatoid disease (primarily seronegative RA on top of my other conditions) but after today's appointment he seems to think it's Dermatomyositis too. I've done a little research but can't find much about it. I'm looking for some insight to see if my experiences match up with others with this condition and how their doctors handled it. I had blood work done again today (waiting on results and a rheumatology appointment) and I'm really nervous about this.
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