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Has anyone else on here ever listened to the song “She” by Jelly Roll I don’t know why I like this song 🎵 just wondering if anybody else listened to it I’m sitting here listening to music and now I’m listening to “I don’t want to write this song” by Brett Young why am I listening to sad songs this particular song was sent to me by this girl I was seeing after me and my first wife split up and she knew I wasn’t over my first wife at the time and today my sister showed me a picture of that girl who sent me Brett song and it was a facebook picture I haven’t thought about that girl in a long time because it’s been a few years ago at least five years ago now since her and I stopped talking. It’s just crazy how memories can happen and be stirred up so easily. Now that I’m separated from my wife for a month now this song “i don’t want to write this song “ can kinda sorta be applied to my current situation at the moment however I’m no where near as destroyed by this gonna be divorce like I was with my first wife there are times I miss her but for the most part I’m fine and can still function but that first divorce had me begging for ☠️ death begging God to take me home with him I didn’t want to live without her and I sit here and think I wish my sister hadn’t shown me that picture of Stephanie because I wish I had met her after I healed from that first divorce because she was a beautiful and sweet girl crazy I don’t know why that whole situation happened to why she showed me Stephanie’s picture and I know that I have the ability to how I let this whole situation affect me and that God’s still in control I can choose to be affected negatively or choose to not let it hurt me and keep being positive although I can’t seem to stop 🛑 thinking 🤔 about Stephanie and what could have been had I met her after I healed and had allowed myself to heal from Erica leaving me but as I type this I need to stop thinking about her because I don’t like going down this rabbit hole 🕳️. Because I don’t like where it goes and how it feels so many painful memories not good. #Depression #brokenheart #stephanie the only thing I missing in this scenario is the cliche bottle of jack Daniel’s no.7 black label whiskey 🥃 to fit the stereo typical broken hearted 💔 cowboy 🤠 now the song “in case you didn’t know popped up “ it’s how I feel about Stephanie because I realized what I had after the fact if I only I had met her after I healed from losing Erica makes me think of what could have been?
