I have diagnosed Borderline Personality Disorder from psychiatry treatment team at Kaiser along with massive depressive disorder, anxiety disorder, and adjustment disorder. I have CPTSD but I have had ptsd since i was.... well my whole damn life I was abused in ways I won't utter even hear when i was an infant/ toddler. anyways i digress. I currently do not have and active Kaiser membership so all I can use is the VA because i am a disabled veteran. my psychiatrist told me she was adding a medication to help me with my mood. which i thought strange because besides severe depression my mood has been stable since I'm all alone right now. I can't really get in a fight with nobody. and nobody can leave or abandon me if nobody is here to begin with. anyways, I take Lexapro for my depression. she warned me that the new medication she was writing for my mood I had to be very careful and "titrate" on to the meds very slowly. naturally i got nervous and i looked up the meds when i got them in the mail and she prescribed me lamotrigine which comes up online as a BI-Polar medication. I don't feel safe taking a med for a condition I know that I don't have and I know that many people who had BPD have been misdiagnosed sometimes several times with Bi-Polar. can anyone offer any thoughts. I know most would say just call her up and talk to her, but to me she lied. she said it was for mood, and its for a completely separate condition. i also see that its used for epilepsy which i also do not have. I realy hope someone can give me some advice
I suffer from anxiety and major depression. I also have epilepsy, adhd and I’m low on the spectrum for autism. My depression went away for awhile and I thought “Hey this is amazing!” Recently it came back and I called a crisis line crying to a man I never met because I was so miserable. I have a little boy and I’m married. I haven’t been wanting to do anything but lay around and just be in my own little world. When my son needs a diaper change I feel like it’s a chore and I barely wanna help him. When the house needs cleaned I wait days to do so because it sucks anymore. I don’t have any friends and my dads side of the family (excluding my aunts and uncles) ignore me when I talk to them. I’m always getting my flaws point out and it makes me feel even worse about myself. I know I’m babbling but that’s what I do and I feel like I’m annoying and a burden. I just hope this helps me and I hope I make friends.
I am new to the Mighty. I have had a reability for 35 years since I was 14. I use the word reability rather than disability because it better describes the skills I have gained and continue to gain to thrive in a world that is not designed by or for people with physical differences. I am more determined and resilient. I am a problem solver and I have empathy for other people who face challenges.
I have epilepsy caused by scarring to the brain from the removal of a cancerous brain tumour when I was 14. I have double vision caused by damage to my optic nerve from the tumour. I have fatigue caused by the radiotherapy I had and the medication I take for epilepsy.
I hope I can encourage others to discover the skills, knowledge and experience they gain through their experience of physical difference. I am a supervised lawyer looking for work as a family law lawyer in Melbourne. I enjoy improvisational acting, creative writing and talking about everything and anything.
My family and I are being evicted because of disability discrimination. The IL Dept. of Human Rights is involved, but unfortunately that doesn’t undo the eviction. We literally no where to go. We’re going to loose all of our fur babies. And, I most likely won’t survive medically because I won’t be able to infuse my antibodies anymore. Last time that happened I was in the ICU for a month, but I also was a lot younger. My daughter has a rare form of epilepsy and special needs. I need to figure out if it would be easier on her to see a long painful downfall of me, or would it be easier if it was super quick? My husband and myself is all she has.
This is our story if anyone wants to know more background.
I thought I’d share another smile maker of mine. Smiling is good, if even for a moment.
I find my fur family to be therapeutic
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