StrugglingWithSelfHarm

Hello to whoever is reading this. My name is Haley and this is my first time posting on here. I’ve been a member for almost a year so I’m not new. I e been struggling extra hard than usual with myself and my head lately. I can’t express my emotions or myself in general, the right way, and I’m so tired and frustrated from trying my best to tell someone what’s really going on with me. I’m to the point to where I don’t wanna bother talking to ppl anymore. I always lacked social skills and had social anxiety pretty bad. So its always been difficult to talk to anyone let along express myself. Since I was little I kept everything to myself all the stuff I buried is finally trying to come out and idk how to deal with it all. I hate to admit it but I don’t have any support I don’t have friends anymore and I worry myself sick thinking that I’m awful and everything I say is stupid or annoying. Eventually I ruin my own relationship #ParanoidThoughts s but my paranoia keeps getting worse. I don’t even wanna speak to ppl anymore. But I thought I’d give it a shot and post on here Basically the paranoid thoughts have got me worrying about things my mind thinks are true. The line between reality and irrational worry’s has become blurred. I can’t tell the difference between reality or just the paranoia getting to me. Can anyone relate? Im a cutter and I’m trying really hard to stop,so I’m looking for anything that could help me not cut again And if you have any advice at all that might help plz let me know. #Anxiety #self -sabotage #Selfharm #StrugglingWithSelfHarm #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #Sociallyawakward Hope everyone is ok at the least. And never give up even when you’re tired and drained from battling an illness or multiple everyday. You matter even if your mind tries to convince u otherwise. I remind myself that all the time.