Tea for the victory
I had a panic attack this morning. I was in a situation that was triggering, and I panicked because I felt helpless.
So….. shower, pjs, comfort soup, and hot tea. Feeling so much better.
#tea #panic #self -care
I had a panic attack this morning. I was in a situation that was triggering, and I panicked because I felt helpless.
So….. shower, pjs, comfort soup, and hot tea. Feeling so much better.
#tea #panic #self -care
Sometimes, we ourselves become our biggest enemy ending up hurting ourselves the way no one can. Yes, sometimes we just become so cruel to ourselves. Trying to impose everything and then going into depression that why can't we do that and all.. But, we forget to appreciate how much struggles we are having and how brave we have been to overcome this. Fighting against every odds to live a normal life though we are severely mentally damaged. Our every steps for living is sure praiseworthy cause being alive is the biggest challenge for us. Our life is not the same like others. No,it was never. We have been fighting for our life and we know we have problems. Anxiety, depression and many more which can just trigger us anytime. Well,it doesn’t have any specific reason. Feeling upset, lost and hopeless nothing seems to be new to me. Well, thrle way we think life would go, maybe it won't turn out like that cause there is no guarantee. But, we are alive.. Didn't just give up,didn’t just commit suicide.. Trying our best to hang in there. Life was never straight line for us.. From the very beginning of this.. Then,suddenly it won't be just good right.. Still, whatever happens or whatever we are doing to live deserve appreciation. Appreciation for living. For doing as much as we are able to when getting up from bed seems the hardest thing. So,we have to appreciate ourselves.. Support our inner self for being so brave.. Whatever happens is filled with million hopes and positivity. We should be satisfied with how much we are doing. Let's appreciate ourselves and let's just live on however it is.. #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety #self -appreciation
Individualism is everywhere, which in and of itself isn't a bad thing. However, it has been corrupted to a trend-like phenomenon. Being different has become something you actively do, not already are. I would go as far as to say that how unique you are is a new way of defining your worth as a person. If you are "not like other girls", you are special and thus, more desirable as a partner or as a friend or generally more popular.
This makes uniqueness a competition: Who is the most different to everybody else? (Note that being too different is not trendy; be a special snowflake, not a weirdo.) If you spend a lot of time on social media platforms, you may have noticed that this is a common way of thinking, although it might be phrased a bit tamer. Still, the idea of being your own person has been corrupted into something far darker: the need to belong by not belonging.
But there's nothing wrong with being average - if you were average, that is. Disclaimer: You're not, even without trying. The chances you're average in every single way are nearing zero.
Average means perfect – you don't have to be either
The average person is what society is build for. Take average height doors for example: 2.30m people cannot fit.
This is not a critique (for once), because although it's not a good solution at all, there's not really a better one, either. You need to model society to some degree and modelling it to best fit the average person is still the best idea. That's because although nobody is perfectly average, many people are fairly close.
I agree that if you could be average, could become perfect, it'd be amazing. But you can't. You could become average, but you could never truly be something you just... aren't.
This entry isn't supposed to be about self-acceptance, but it seems like this is where it leads me. There's a difference between wanting to improve oneself and wanting to be someone else.
You can (and should) improve yourself without disregarding or trying to change who you truly are as a person.
For a long time, I thought the phrase "You're perfect the way you are" was wrong. I now see it in a different light. You're not perfect in the way that you're flawless; you're perfect in the way that you cannot be another person, and this is your true, ideal form. You're broken in the best kind of way, so to speak.
Don't try and corrupt or change yourself to please others. You don't have to be a special snowflake, a bad girl or guy and you don't have to dress or talk or look or behave in ways you don't want to. You don't have to conceal flaws or insecurities to fit in.
We need more genuine people, more truth, more pain, more sorrow, more unrestricted joy, more dancing, more laughing, especially online. Don't pretend to be happy, sad, depressed or modest when you're not.
The whole range of emotions you already have makes you good enough. They're valid. Your feelings always are, you can't control them, after all. They make you who you are.
#self #selfImprovement #better #perfect #perfectionism #Basic #average #valid
The sudden feeling in your heart that nothing feels good. I don’t like anything or anyone. This feeling is so suffocating I can't even explain. My exams are starting in a week. I am extremely stressed out. Yeah, dealing with my depression for the whole College life. It’s been a year now. Now, when I look back, I feel how I even managed to survive.. Yeah, in a top college with all brilliant students and competitions, I managed to survive dealing with my extreme depression. I Couldn't study, I used to skip my tuitions and I didn’t even want to go to college. That time, I used to lock myself, used to be afraid of morning cause I had to go to college to behave as normal as them though I was never. When, I used to come back to my room, I would just lie down and cry. Most of my suicidal attempts were from that time. I lost interest from my life and everything. Still, in this worse situation, I gave exams and stayed my college. And, no one knows about my situation except some of close friends. No one does. Even not my exam mates. It’s more likely I never let anyone to know. I fought. The exam which is coming was something I wasn’t even sure if I would be able to go for it. If you asked me this one year ago, I would have probably cried and said I don’t know. My life is finished and all.. Cause I was literally on the verge of leaving my college and everything behind. But, I never wanted to. I can't tell how much I have struggled to come here and I am still struggling. But, now it’s like why I am saying all this. Maybe to remind myself how much struggles I have faced for this. I was just eighteen and a teenager who never faced any of this in her entire life. It’s still getting bad but that me struggled so much and she was so brave to go through all this. She managed to survive and didn’t just give up. I had every options of giving up. But, I never wanted that. Yeah, just appreciating myself and telling myself you have been so strong and you faced the worst. It has nearly come to an end and you can do this. Just go for it cause it’s basically the ending. Just go for it. The road was never smooth and I decided to go for it. And that’s it. You can cause you are the strongest ever. #Depression #MentalHealth #Anxiety #self appreciation
By societies standards, I should feel great. I should be grateful than my life was saved. I should be thankful that nurses and doctors put hours and hours of labor into my corpse and I am grateful but I do also feel guilty. I don’t want them to feel like their work was all in vain, but at the same time I struggle but I don’t struggle like people would think that I’d struggle I don’t have issues with money. My wife left me two weeks in the hospital stay so I no longer have relationship issues although it was a toxic relationship and kind of glad I don’t have those issues.
Of course, the loneliness of things sets in. The nights bring memories of things I did in my past that were fun times spent with friends now time spent with my ex-wife where we weren’t fighting and things were good.
My uncle left me his house of which I now live in, which would be a blessing if he hadn’t passed away here if I hadn’t found him in this house if the walls didn’t reek of my uncle. Every night here is torture. Knowing what happened what suffering took place here.
Im in pain, not physically but mentally emotionally I don’t know what to do. I want to run but I don’t know where to? crawl out of my skin.
Ive felt many pains over the last few years, but never the pain of what I feel now, I feel I’m one step closer to going catatonic. Life’s finally broken me, people tell me to get out, where do I go? And no offense I don’t want to be around other people like this.
find a hobby they say, what? At the moment in life I enjoy nothing.
You’re just being difficult they say, you don’t value how lucky you are. No I know how lucky I am however my luck came with a curse. Money can’t cure my heart, money can’t bring me happiness. Money can’t find me companionship or connection that lasts longer than a day.
take a trip, where? I don’t want to leave my house
therapy, I’ve tried several, they don’t tell me anything I haven’t already thought about myself in my mind.
And believe me I feel like I’ve tried all of the above, why I may have had fleeting instances of joy and happiness soon I had to come back to reality.
I’ve tried the medication I take 15 different ones for my heart my physical pains I was left with, my kidneys liver just about everything, I have a partially artificial heart and a machine that keeps my heart beating. I’m covered in scars from the vampire scars on my throat where the ventilator was and the medicine tube was, down ny chest and the xxs on my stomach and back I had lines coming out of for months.
Whats wrong with me? Have I just come to the end of my road?
I apologize for these jumbled thoughts they’re from a mind of a sleep deprived individual who’s barely hanging on by a thread.
im not even sure if im looking for some inspiration that might help or save me as I’m not sure there’s much left to say or do that could help that already hasn’t been said I think I’m just leaving these notes so if by some stroke of magic change happens and everything turns around I can look back and remember where I came from. Or if i simply can’t carry the weight anymore at least I’ll have said something and my friend and family will have closure, they’ll at least know how much i suffered inside and that im free and onto greener pastures.
#Suicide #Depression #self #alone #Pain #Life #Journal #PTSD #Broken #empty
Hi, my name is PracticalTurtle55. I'm here because I need help to stop self harming.
Take a minute for yourself today! A daily mental health check-in is like hitting pause to understand your emotions. Are you feeling stressed? Anxious? Acknowledging your feelings is the first step to managing them. Self-care isn't selfish, it's essential! For instance when I wake up in the morning and make a list of things that I find challenging or trigger my anxiety and I think for a few minutes about what I can do that’s within my control to help with those things and I help you resilient way to push myself forward in life #mentalhealthawareness #dailycheckin #Selfcare #IfYouFeelHopeless #MentalHealth #ADHD #Addiction #Anxiety #self #Selfharm