I feel overwhelmed. I have a lot on my plate for the next week, and no I can't take any of it off. I know getting everything done is possible. I think my overwhelm and anxiety stems from the fear that my AS will kick off and knock me out and I won't manage to do everything I need to do. It is a constant fear for me. This last week AS has kicked off and knocked me out for a few days after a period of relative stability. Every time I get knocked like this, this specific anxiety and overwhelm rears its head again. I know I can only do what I can. I know I must make my health my number one priority, and yet even after 5+ years of this it's at times like these I still fight it. I still stress and worry over it eventhough 99% of how I feel is outside of my control. And I don't know where to go from here. I don't know how to lessen this overwhelm. Prioritising and planning doesn't do it because I can't plan the unpredictability of my health into it.
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