Upsanddowns

Today, I feel emotionally exhausted, drained, spent, all of the above. I want support, but I also want to push everyone away. I had been “up” for a while, so I guess this is where the “down” begins. I’m going to attempt to create some type of a safe zone for myself for the time being. And to be honest, I’m really hating myself for letting in certain people into my life who had no intention of staying. It may be all in my head, but that’s how I feel about it. It’s even harder sometimes to accept that I do matter. That, and constant vacillating between knowing who I am and completely feeling like I don’t have an identity at all. I know it will all pass eventually, I’m just feeling every inch of this right now. Tears and all. #MentalHealth #Depression #Borerlinepersonalitydisorder #Upsanddowns #Emotionallydrained