Well I’ve been doing pretty well since I’ve decided to take control of my life, my mental illnesses and my emotions.
There were a lot of times that I could have blown up but decided to take the high road and distract myself instead.
I know this isn’t going to be an easy road and I know I am going to have slip ups here and there.
I still feel certain things, I still feel hurt by my past but I have to remind myself I don’t live there. I need to live in the present and look forward.
I’ve come to learn a lot of my triggers the last few days and I ask myself “okay but WHY does this upset me?” Asking myself these questions has helped me learn a lot about how to control myself when I do get triggered.
I’ve also come to realize not every little thing needs a HUGE reaction. I’ve just been draining myself by doing so.
Part of the reason I am working so hard on myself right now is because I want my marriage to work. I want my kids to grow up with two happy parents. I want to learn to have patience with my husband and my kids. I want to be utterly and completely in love with life again.
Let me know what you guys have done in order to work on yourselves! Could be anything! Could be blocking a toxic person, or finding a hobby that makes you happy. 😊
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