YELLING

Honestly, it was a small thing. I was talking to one of my co-workers & I was unaware we were in a zoom meeting (he just had his phone propped up on a ledge). I was being a little loud & he yelled, “Hey! We’re in a meeting!”. It scared me so freaking badly. I’ve been thinking about it all day. I’m not scared to come into work but when someone just all of a sudden yells at you without warning, it gets your blood pumping.

It may not seem like I’m trying hard but where I work, there’s a ton of downtime. I’m constantly worrying I should be doing something, when there’s nothing actually nothing to do (I’ve talked to him about this & that’s what he said). I don’t want him to yell at me again obviously but I think the reason why I’m so freaked out is because I had no warning. He didn’t tell me to politely stop talking, he just yelled.

I don’t know, maybe I should talk to my professor about how I feel? It’s an internship so I have an accompanying class. But then again, she might tell me it is my fault bc I should have been listening.
#worry #YELLING #Working

Im a 39 yr old mother, my daughter is 15. Since October of last year my daughter was super depressed about a situation that happened at school. She liked a boy and the boy liked her back until, he told her he didnt like her, and never did. She was absolutely heartbroken. In October i knew nothing of this. One night i received the first of many fb messages to follow. Her friends would message me and say they were worried about her mental health. This lead to numerous hospital visits and shes on medication, I took her to a # psychologist. Thought she was doing better. I find her moods are a #rollercoaster . Numerous times shes had cut marks on here body id ask what happened and shed say the dog did it. About 2 months ago a new boy she was dating broke up with her, and she was #YELLING #screaming about the situation. She ended up slicing her forearm all up. Thankfully, it was nothing to severe. A few days ago she went off the handle from me just asking if everything was ok. She said " youre my problem" she was yelling screaming bright red in the face and then she started shoving me around. Anyway just a lil back ground. Right now im suffering severly with #panic # anxiety I cant sleep and spend my days crying. It feels like im freaking out on the inside. Anyone in a similar situation? Am I crazy? I do have an appt with the same psychologist my daughter goes to. Also wanted to know if, i find my daughter sometimes uses things against me to get what she wants. #newterritory #momofateen . Thank you for reading.