5 Hard Truths I've Learned While Battling Bipolar Disorder
Part 1 of 2 Impulsiveness. Heightened self-confidence that could reach impairing levels. Irritability and even rage. Racing thoughts. Euphoria. Increased distractibility. Even #Psychosis and paranoia. These are some of the many problems you may face if you are unfortunate enough to suffer from #BipolarDisorder . People with #BipolarDisorder suffer from cycles of #Depression and #Mania that can greatly affect their ability to function in every day life. I am one of those people and have been diagnosed for over four years. However, I believe I’ve suffered from it for over ten years before reaching out for professional help. I’ve learned a lot during my battle with this disabling disorder, including…
#1: I’ve learned who my true friends are (and have become a better friend).
I have to admit that I’ve put my friends and family through a lot while dealing with #BipolarDisorder . Some couldn’t handle me, and I can’t blame them for that. Luckily, many people have stuck around, and, while seeking support from peers, I’ve actually made friends who suffer from similar issues as me.
I must say that I’ve become a better friend through trial and error. Medication has definitely improved my #Relationships , because I am not nearly as irritable and toxic as I once was. I’ve also learned that my friends can only support me so much, until they get overwhelmed themselves with my problems. It’s not fair to them if all I do is emotionally dump on them. They aren’t therapists. I’m not saying it’s wrong to reach out to friends, just that not all of them are emotionally capable of giving support, especially if they, themselves, are going through hard things. It’s important to be mindful of their emotional states before expecting them to deal with your problems.
#2: There is no shame in taking medication.
Chances are, you know someone who takes medication for their #MentalHealth , because one in five people deals with a mental disorder. More and more people are seeking professional help every day. Slowly, medication is becoming more accepted in society, and hopefully the de-stigmatization continues. You are not alone if you have to take a medication to help you deal with a mental disorder.
#3: Doctors are human, too.
In the beginning of my #MentalHealth journey, I was misdiagnosed as having an #AdjustmentDisorder due to inadequate screening for #BipolarDisorder . Because of this, I was put on the wrong medication and went #Mania within days. After this happened, I was sent to another doctor who kept me on the medication that was making me #Mania , thinking the #Mania would settle down eventually. This doctor was completely wrong, and I became delusional and psychotic. Finally, I was taken off of the medication and put on something more suitable for #BipolarDisorder . Even the previous doctor I went to said she wouldn’t have kept me on the medication.
One major reason I didn’t know I was #BipolarDisorder before having medication induce severe #Mania is I didn’t know what #Hypomania was and how it is less impairing than full-blown #Mania . I thought my #Mania symptoms would have had to be severe in order to have #BipolarDisorder . Looking back, my #Mania symptoms probably started ten or fifteen years ago when I was so much younger.
A lot of heartache would’ve been avoided if these medical mistakes hadn’t happened. Luckily, I lived to tell about it after almost ending up hospitalized. Which brings me to my next point…
#4: The psych ward is a safe place.
In 2019, I had a major depressive episode that ended in me being hospitalized due to having plans to end my life. I remember shaking as I approached the lady who checked you in at the emergency department of the hospital. My blood pressure was out of control, and my heart was racing. I had never been so scared in my life.
I was put in a room for hours in the ER and had all of my belongings taken away from me, including my phone. I was so im