“What is your question?” #Art #OCD #Schizophrenia
Based on an OBE in 2017. Hope that’s okay to say. Don’t know what else to call the experience. Painted with iPad and Apple Pencil.
I have a goal about making more collages before new year.
And I am making it happen.
I am very proud.
When I was a younger person, I always thought that the idea of going completely crazy and creating incredible art was quite a romantic notion. So many of my personal heroes appeared to follow that route, so many great literary and musical figures. Syd. Dave. Although I refer to him up there in the title, Van Gogh wasn't on my radar at the time, but he's the quintessential example, really.
Yeah, I wanted to lose my mind, wander madly through the world, and bring back from the fringes of reality art that no other, saner human could ever have imagined.
During Matt Smith's first season of Doctor Who, there was an utterly brilliant episode called "Vincent and the Doctor." I was familiar with Van Gogh's story, of course, but my struggles with mental health had never really seemed of a kind with his. Or the stories of his, anyway. But, as is usual with so brilliant a series, the handling of Van Gogh's troubles was not romanticized. It was brutal and real. And it felt like me.
In the hard years of the last decade, I produced 5 albums worth of music. I achieved most of a doctorate in English Literature. I wrote and I wrote and I wrote, personally and professionally. I amassed a comic and graphic ephemera collection that rivals most libraries.
But I was, to put it bluntly and in a way that I've been told not to, crazy. I was angry and lost and sad and I was taking it out on the only two people I thought would always forgive me. It did not turn out romantically. I did not wander the fringes without doing serious damage to the place I wanted to return to.
Would Van Gogh have traded his art, his solace and inspiration, for a life without mental health issues? Could he have created equally-beautiful works had he not suffered the way he did? And, and this one irks me, how could he have possibly made such a choice? All he knew was how he was.
I think about this a lot these days, as my creativity seems to be spiking.
I suck at sewing, but I bought this build-a-fox kit for a little art therapy that took me out of my comfort zone. I love that you could choose the fabric and thread colors (teal is for PTSD awareness) He's all cockeyed but super cute anyway.
This is a photo I took at VA Beach of the sunrise. It makes me happy. I usually paint, but was able to get some great photos. This one represents the opportunity we have to start over everyday with hope fresh in our minds. New beginnings abound. #ADHD #BipolarDisorder #Art
I've been wanting to paint for a long time. I live in this group home and the only let me paint in the kitchen. It seems like I've come to a block in my painting career. I can't bring myself to do it even though I've got ideas on what I want to do. I keep telling myself that other people will bother me and I won't get anything done. I need to paint. Why can't I bring myself to do it? Posted are one of my paintings. #Art #MentalHealth #Bipolar2 #ADHD
I've created a triptych to visualise the darkness that swallowed me after getting my MS diagnosis...
click on the link to find out more and see the 2nd painting of this artwork :)
❤️ not all disabilities are visible ❤️
this is one of the patches l've made for my shop Fever Dream Boutique
it is often uncredited on Pinterest and social media reposts