autoimmune

#RareDisease

(After social interactions : I got anxious ptsd triggered... hypervigilant , feeling unsafe, the thoughts people going to hurt me and not feeling safe after I shared some stories facts bout myself :( ... how you stop this pattern? Or tryin to calm down )

Ive been dealing with this for how many days since the last time I talked to one of my acquaintances (he called me friend) but we're not really friends. He visited me and talked about stuff and I saw myself I was telling some of my medical new diagnosis. He was surprised 😮, never thought I am dealing with too many serious stuff on my plates... I'd kinda got comfortable that time. The trick was after that day; too many thoughts in my mind , Have you ever felt? The thoughts like, I shouldn't said it or shared some of personal stuff. I was creating a scenarios in my mind- that this person I should not trust - maybe he will do something not nice against me - tellin other people How I was being dramatic or whatsoever. Why am I feeling this way ? After social interactions, I felt so many negative emotions towards myself and to the person I interacted. The fears that person is going to hurt me or do something against me after being vulnerable or sharing my weaknesses. ??? My head started to hurt - it's like I wanna prepare for something to protect myself , if the scenarios I was creating in my mind is goin to happen. This is tiring exhausting frustrating. Also there are some past events got triggeredthen i was having nightmares and racing thoughts.. feeling ny head is goin to explode sometimes. How you deal with this kind of stuff?