Well doctor took me off of Cymbalta on the 3/18. I had to go back on it last night because I was having major withdrawal symptoms from stopping it. Has anyone else had withdrawn symptoms from stopping it.
I don't get into relationships because it feels like all they want from me is a physical relationship. They are only interested in my body and not my soul.
In my 10th grade year, this was interested in me. We are going to call him "Bob". I knew Bob since 7th grade but we weren't really friend. We never hangout or talked. We mostly played basketball in junior high school. Then in High School we still didnt hangout or talk really. We spent mostly talking on Facebook. He always seemed nice so when he ask me to be his gf. I said yes to give him a chance and I thought maybe I might fall for him. The next day he was really happy and then starting ask question "Can I hold your hand?" "Can I hold your butt?" Etc.... Then I started to feel uncomfortable and weird but I told him no. After we play 20 question and I did not like most the question they were mostly about my body and sexual activity and other explicit things.
By day 3 it got to my break point and Bob totally freak me out. He started saying im the best gf and that he Loves me and he will never let me go. ..... It's only been 3days how can you love me already? We haven't been on a date I thought to myself in my mind. He continue in by saying I can't wait to have kids with you and have a family and be married to you...... At that moment he lost me . I was only 14 barley in 10th grade. The next I broke things off with him and the reason I gave him was we have nothing in common.
I just made an apoointment with my therapist. I havent seen them in 3 months now. At first it was because my last job wouldnt allow me with my work schedule. Then ut was nore avoidance now. I dont feel the connection. And I feel like they dont take me seriously. But out of the blue my therapist called to check up on me which was bizzare. But the way they called. I felt they only called to get more clients back and not to ruin their reputation of loosing a client. Or I dont know thats how it sounded to me. But I may be mis-reading the situation. I go in tomorroq at 10 am. I am not going to lie. I cant really concentrate now on anything aince I made the appoinment. I fewl veey sick and anxious. I just want to get it over with. Any tips to help when re-connwcting with a therapist? Or how to del with a therapist you havent seen in ahwile? #axniety #PTSD #Therapy #anxious
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