blackandwhite

I found a picture that almost perfectly represents my view of how I feel.
I feel a slight discomfort - what could it be? Nervousness, anxiety, tension?
I feel a tinge of joy at being able to go home soon, and before I can feel it again, it slips away.
I feel guilt, which is almost always there, and insecurity, whenever someone looks at me in a weird way.

Some days I can't even name what I feel.
Other days I see it clearly in front of me, as if there is an invisible line connecting everything.

And sometimes I just don't feel anything, everything is distant, the emptiness paralyzes me, it's all black or white.

Color is rare. #blackandwhite

A quick self-portrait pencil sketch of what the experience of living 'neath the thuggery of sdepression, #Insomnia , #CPTSD , #BPD ...

This is the first time I tried drawing in only slate pencils, without color. Actually, I don’t usually show drawings at all because I’m not skilled.

But my daughter liked this so I thought I’d share.