numbness

hi,I wanna share my thoughts with you guys, so for awhile now all I feel is numbness, i don't feel alive, i just existe, everyday I wake up i try to feel something even if it's bad, listening to music, reading books,watching movies,work,study...

everything is useless, all i feel is a big hole inside my chest and heart swallow me into darkness, I don't wanna give up to my dark thoughts and do things i'll regret so I write everything but even writing is useless to me NOW.

#Depression #numbness #Selfharm

When numbness makes an entrance and engulfs me, I have no motivation. I do not care about anything.
Self-harm urges creeps up on me. I do not cut anymore, but I still have those urges. There are other ways to accomplish self-harm, not just cutting and scratching and burning.
I sometimes don’t eat. When I’m hungry, I don’t feed myself. Or, I do, but not enough.
I wish my battle with self-harm would just go away.
It will take continued progress, I know. I’m trying not to feed my demons what they want.
#self -harm #Depression #numbness

You ever feel like you’re always there for others when they need the help, but when you need the help, no ones there? I’m not afraid to admit that I’ve felt like that more times than I can count.
It’s okay to feel this way. I know, it’s hard to validate yourself and watcher your feeling. I feel like no one is there for me, but I also know that’s my thoughts, that it’s okay to not be okay.
I want to disappear and I don’t want company, yet I feel so lonely.
I don’t wish this on my worst enemy. It can be hard to overcome.
What I do is during these times is I talk to myself like I’m giving an inspiring speech to a group of mentally ill people.
What you’re going through is not the end. It will get better. You are not your mind, etc.
Hopefully I can reach just ONE person with this. If I do, then mission accomplished.
#Depression #numbness #NegativeThoughts

I am screaming
No one hears
My silent cries

I am hurting
No one sees
Through my mask

I am smiling
Though I'm devastated
Eaten up from the inside

I am numb
Can't feel anything
They say "keep smiling"

But I can't
I refuse to smile
I refuse to feel
Cause I can't

I'm not screaming anymore
I'm not hurting anymore
There is nothing but emptiness
Numb blankness now

But in my dreams
My silent cries
Echo in my head
Dragging me down

To a silent hell

#MightyPoets #Depression #IntrusiveThoughts #Poetry #numbness

I have recently written a blog/thought on how numbness can be a superpower. Any ideas on how to find it? I'm trying to find it to show my friend and have the email to say it's been approved. #TheMighty #Depression #numbness