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As It Was #SuicidalThoughts #Suicide #CheckInWithMe #SuicideAttemptSurvivors #MentalHealth #Depression #numbness

I almost ended my life about a half hour ago. But I failed because I was too exhausted. I’m coming back around now, but I still somewhat wish I wasn’t alive. Nobody knows about this, and I’m not going to tell anyone, because if nobody has ever cared enough to ask if I’m ok, they must not care enough to help me. People with mental health struggles just try to tell me they’ve felt the same way I have, or just brush it off because they’ve normalized pain, and people with relatively good lives just freak out and want to stay away from me. "How are you" is usually an empty question, even from my friends. I’m more than done with pain, and done feeling nothing. My suffering may come to an end eventually, but it’ll be far too late by then…

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lack of sense of self

I feel like I'm a tired shell who knows and recognizes what is around but has no wires attaching it to the surrounding.

I'm numb.

I interact with other people, but I feel like I'm not in my body. It doesn't mean I'm somewhere else. I just am not?
I'm not sure how to describe it, but I'm sure I'm very tired.

Does it happen to you to feel detached?
Or more detached when tired?

It happens very often to me but it seems that being tired stresses me too much.

#numbness #Identity #BPD #Dissociation #Depersonalization

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Hi! My name is mal. I’ve been having these symptoms and honestly I don’t know what they are I’ve had lots of these for years and I recently went to the doctor about this and he told me that I was dehydrated which i was but my symptoms didn’t get better with drinking more water. For context I have been diagnosed with anxiety, adhd and an eating disorder anyway to the symptoms.
.cold and hot flashes
.constant purple/mottled hands and legs
. Numb hands
.often dizzy
.when I stand up I often sit back down because of feeling lightheaded
. Nausea before eating
.often sweaty
.often tired after simple tasks (dishes, making bed)
If anyone knows anything related to these symptoms I would appreciate so much if you could reach out. Thank you!!! #help #nausea #Dizziness #dizzy #cold flashes #Hot flashes #numbness #purplehands #Fainting #lightheaded #Sweaty #chronic fatigue

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hi,I wanna share my thoughts with you guys, so for awhile now all I feel is numbness, i don't feel alive, i just existe, everyday I wake up i try to feel something even if it's bad, listening to music, reading books,watching movies,work,study...

everything is useless, all i feel is a big hole inside my chest and heart swallow me into darkness, I don't wanna give up to my dark thoughts and do things i'll regret so I write everything but even writing is useless to me NOW.

#Depression #numbness #Selfharm

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Phantom feelings

An early morning poem #Depression

They start when we’re born
And leave when we’re torn
All the ups and downs
And the loss and crowns
Feelings both funny and dumb
Feelings both heavy or numb
They come and go like the moon
Hoping to return back soon

Once they’ve been and gone
When many have turned to none
So far out of sight
The weight becomes tight
Feelings that once were
Fade over night
Like a ghost lingering deep
Those feelings impossible to keep

#Depression #numbness

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I found a picture and it made my evening #BPD #Depression #blackorwhite #numbness

I found a picture that almost perfectly represents my view of how I feel.
I feel a slight discomfort - what could it be? Nervousness, anxiety, tension?
I feel a tinge of joy at being able to go home soon, and before I can feel it again, it slips away.
I feel guilt, which is almost always there, and insecurity, whenever someone looks at me in a weird way.

Some days I can't even name what I feel.
Other days I see it clearly in front of me, as if there is an invisible line connecting everything.

And sometimes I just don't feel anything, everything is distant, the emptiness paralyzes me, it's all black or white.

Color is rare. #blackandwhite

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Hello Everryboddy ! ( I'm saying hello in my best Grover voice. ...a blue fur covered muppet from Sesame Street kid's program. )

I was told that I should come and say hello. My name is Tavia, short version of Octavia. I am married. I live in bed ( if you can call that living..) due to the pain of several chronic pain conditions /injuries from a serious car accident I was in 23 years ago. I am now in my 50s. I deal with a lot of loneliness and isolation and some depression about losing my life and most of the people I cared about to an existence in pain.

#EhlersDanlosSyndrome #Fibromyalgia #AnkylosingSpondylitis #SpinalStenosis #ChronicMigraines #sciatica #Bursitis #Nervedamage #cervicalfusion #cervicaldiscectomy #spinalbonespurs #Hypothyroidism #PeripheralNeuropathy #numbness #Insomnia


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Other Ways.

When numbness makes an entrance and engulfs me, I have no motivation. I do not care about anything.
Self-harm urges creeps up on me. I do not cut anymore, but I still have those urges. There are other ways to accomplish self-harm, not just cutting and scratching and burning.
I sometimes don’t eat. When I’m hungry, I don’t feed myself. Or, I do, but not enough.
I wish my battle with self-harm would just go away.
It will take continued progress, I know. I’m trying not to feed my demons what they want.
#self -harm #Depression #numbness


Not Your Fault.

You ever feel like you’re always there for others when they need the help, but when you need the help, no ones there? I’m not afraid to admit that I’ve felt like that more times than I can count.
It’s okay to feel this way. I know, it’s hard to validate yourself and watcher your feeling. I feel like no one is there for me, but I also know that’s my thoughts, that it’s okay to not be okay.
I want to disappear and I don’t want company, yet I feel so lonely.
I don’t wish this on my worst enemy. It can be hard to overcome.
What I do is during these times is I talk to myself like I’m giving an inspiring speech to a group of mentally ill people.
What you’re going through is not the end. It will get better. You are not your mind, etc.
Hopefully I can reach just ONE person with this. If I do, then mission accomplished.
#Depression #numbness #NegativeThoughts


Silent hell

I am screaming
No one hears
My silent cries

I am hurting
No one sees
Through my mask

I am smiling
Though I'm devastated
Eaten up from the inside

I am numb
Can't feel anything
They say "keep smiling"

But I can't
I refuse to smile
I refuse to feel
Cause I can't

I'm not screaming anymore
I'm not hurting anymore
There is nothing but emptiness
Numb blankness now

But in my dreams
My silent cries
Echo in my head
Dragging me down

To a silent hell

#MightyPoets #Depression #IntrusiveThoughts #Poetry #numbness