breathless

When you feel like you can’t breathe like the oxygen has left your lungs there’s no way to catch your breath.
You stuck in a maze of darkness every time you turn a corner and think you’ve found the exit when in reality you’ve hit another dead end more and the more the darkness consumes you the more you can’t breathe even in my sleep I can’t find a escape from the darkness I can’t get rid of the Demons that are eating me alive I’m alive but not actually living just existing I can’t even recognise my own reflection in the mirror anymore I’m slowly disappearing in the world around me consumed by the darkness the voices taking over my mind when the battle feels like the end there’s no sign of winning There’s no more weapons to fight no more strength to carry on when you feel like surrendering is nearing you can see it in the near distance the masks you wear each day no longer fit the struggle gets harder your hearts hardly beating the blood is seeping out slowly killing you inside out there’s no voice left in side you to shout and the whispers aren’t loud enough anymore how do you explain to people who don’t understand the battle between your thoughts everyday how do you explain to people when they can’t see the scars they can’t see the pain I’m hiding behind my eyes they can’t hear my heart as the beat gets slower I’m stuck with constant reminders that I don’t belong I’m stuck in a world where I can’t find my place no matter how hard I try I try to live but in reality I can only exist I can’t find my purpose my worth my reason for my being maybe I was always ment to be broken maybe this is who I am maybe I’m ment to be alone but I just hope one day maybe I’ll find a cure

I'M DYING EVERY DAY

("AREN'T WE ALL?" YOU SAY)

I'M LIVING A LIFE OF PAIN

THAT EATS MY SANITY AWAY

("IT WILL GET BETTER." YOU SAY)

YOU AREN'T IN MY SHOES

YOU DON'T HAVE TO PAY MY DUES

("EVERYONE HAS PROBLEMS. NOT ONLY YOU.")

YOU TURN YOUR HEAD SO YOU WON'T SEE

HOW MUCH YOUR BLINDNESS IS KILLING ME

("STOP BEING A DRAMA QUEEN.")

HOW DEAD DO I HAVE TO BE

BEFORE YOU SEE THAT I CAN'T BREATHE?

Having one of those days where iv been feeling like I can't breathe all day today 😱😩 like my tube actually feels like it's getting tight and I keep having to take a big breath just to get a 'release'... Also, getting very annoyed at stuff, because it's hard to not let stuff bother you when you have anxiety, I also think about bad stuff that's happened in the past and get annoyed about it all over again 🙄 I wish anxiety didn't exist, I really do.... #Anxiety #AnxietyAttacks #cantbreathe #breathless #MentalHealth #InsideTheMighty