brokenontheinside

I feel like I am being abandoned and rejected by all of my friends. I know I talk about things going on and how I feel alot. I don’t want to be this depressed n draining person that nobody enjoys being around. I currently have no close friends and spend every weekend alone. I am glad I have parents that live here and invite me over on the weekends. The truth is though I miss hanging out with people my age. I miss having friends. This year every friendship,old, new or close has either gone or fizzled out. I just want people to stay in my life and want me around. #bpdsymptoms #lossofbestfriend #rejected #FearOfAbandonment #brokenontheinside

Yesterday morning I was carrying the recycling to the curb. That's when I hear from an open window across the street; " He's supposed to be disabled. Seems to walk perfectly fine to me."  I just shook my head in disbelief and walked back into the safety of my home.  I am so tired of judgmental people that don't even bother to say hello to you in the morning.
So sorry I don't look sick enough for your standards. #brokenontheinside #hiddenhealth

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