lossofbestfriend

I feel like I am being abandoned and rejected by all of my friends. I know I talk about things going on and how I feel alot. I don’t want to be this depressed n draining person that nobody enjoys being around. I currently have no close friends and spend every weekend alone. I am glad I have parents that live here and invite me over on the weekends. The truth is though I miss hanging out with people my age. I miss having friends. This year every friendship,old, new or close has either gone or fizzled out. I just want people to stay in my life and want me around. #bpdsymptoms #lossofbestfriend #rejected #FearOfAbandonment #brokenontheinside

In a matter of minutes, I lost everyone close to me to due to a jealous ex friend. She told everyone who I ever venting about to her what I said. Everyone hates me and it’s like a group of them. They’ve tried to tell my significant other things about me but he stuck by my side. I have a few people who have checked on me. I was depressed. I felt unloved by everyone, and I still feel it. I’m taking it day by day. Everyone goes through something. But I’ve been talking to God to get through it all. It’s not easy but I’m feeling better

So my friend is going through a really hard time with mental health right now and he is fresh out of a brake up but today he told me he was thinking of suicide and in that moment I became the biggest hypocrite I have ever been. I have made more than one attempt on my life (not that he knows that) but I have also buried seven friends over the last few years due to suicide, that’s a lot when you consider I’m only 25. But I lost myself in anger and fear when he told me and I yelled at him and broke down crying telling him not to make me bury another friend. I ended up begging him not to do that. Safe to say I really upset him and I spent the rest of the time saying sorry to him. I feel like utter crap for what I did. I wish I could take it back.

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Never thought I’d end up back here, lonely in a crowded room. I met my other half, my missing piece and thought it was finally over but life hadn’t finished messing with me yet!! April came and our world was turn inside out, cancer, terminal cancer!! Suddenly the rug was gone from beneath me and despite my difficulties I had to face it, I could cry after he was gone, I could break then!! Now he has gone, so much faster then anyone thought he would and I feel lonely and broken. 3 months have felt like three life times but I’m going to get through, some how, some way I will come through this. He made me promise not to stop living, he made me promise to find a way to laugh again so I will, I won’t break my promises to him even though he is gone. So I will learn to live with my poor health even without him coz I at least have a life when his was taken too soon. So look out life u haven’t beaten me yet, broken I might be but finished I am not..... #chronicillnesswarrior #lossofbestfriend

I've struggled with major depression all of my life. My cat passed away at the end of July, I've been more depressed than I was before. My #ChronicPain days are worse without her calming pressence. #outofsorts #lossofbestfriend