Struggling
I was fired from my good job after a second emergency hospital stay due to my illnesses. Of course they couldn’t fire me because of it so they spent the last few months concocting ways to set me up to fail. Ironically despite my hurdles with health, I’m really good at my job and a hard worker (is sickies have to work harder than the rest, right?!) and so the most they could do was tell me that I was caught talking on the clock, when I asked how lo they said for 10 minutes, and if it happens again then I’ll be fired. This was my very first knowledge of this incident, let’s not get into how everyone else is always talking far more blatantly on the clock and for 30+ minutes, but it’s not really about talking. So I stopped talking to anyone at all, which sucked and caused depression, but I did it. Next week after that I was told I rolled my eyes in a meeting and I need to control my facial reactions else I’ll be fired...not joking, this was secretly recorded by me and it was word for word. I told them fine, I’ll play your game but that I knew they were trying to illegally push me out. I went to HR, Hr told them I spoke to them and the next day they claimed I was trying to build ally’s against them, so I was fired. I was super happy to be out of such a toxic work place (etrailer in wentzville Missouri, for any interested parties) but now I’ve been so depressed despite being happier away from there. I realize the difficulty in finding a long term good job dealing with all my health issues. I still do a great job and got all my work done, I guess I’m still just a liability in the end. Applying for disability now in hopes I can get that going at least, although it’s not what I wanted for my life when I’m only 31. I feel like I’ve fought for so long and so hard to make it in life before I got worse, and I feel like all that hard work and I failed anyways s because I’m already a lot worse and unable to do any normal full time job that isn’t lenient. I keep telling myself to stop feeling sorry for myself, but I can’t stop feeling like I didn’t make it in time and worrying about my future now and if my disease really will rule my life like I feared. #CrohnsDisease #BullousPemphigoid #autoimmune #Endometriosis #Depression