CPSD

I am here wide awake for the 7th night in a row. I'm exhausted mentally and physically. I see no future and everything seems so hopeless. I don't want to wake up in the morning. #major depressive disorder #CPSD #Anxiety #suicidal

It amazes me that I can’t see everyone else’s reality. I see things through my thick lens of my traumas and mental illness. I really can trust what I see, hear, hear, or even say.

When people recant situation that I have been present to witness I am completely amazed how it can be a complete opposite of what I say.

People repeat to me something I have said and I have no recollection of saying it the way I did.

Sometimes I wonder what reality I am living. I know what gaslighting is but this is different.

Here are my diagnosis but they aren’t my identity. # Bipolar 1 w/ sever depression #CPSD #ADHD #…. A lot more. #healed from Borderline Personality Disorder

#CPTSD

Deep

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Skin
Blood
Bones

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Pain
Shame
Grief

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Disbelief
Disharmony
Dishonesty

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Hate
Fear
Sad

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If they dug to the center of the earth it would not reach the deep where I find myself, lost.

#ChildhoodSexualAbuse