degenerativediskdisease

Hello everyone! So ive been reading all yoir wisdom thoughts and stories for quiet awhile now. And I think its time to talk about myself. Im Rofel, 29 yo and living in Brussels Belgium. luckily I have my family around and I have a very caring fiancé ❤

Ive always had bad back, it started when I was training to work in the child care/early years training that I had my 1st #lumbago flair up on 2012 /2013. Drs said it was just a lumbago and luckily the pain went away.

It came back on November 2018 while working as a nanny for a 11 month old boy. we were at the park when I felt my back got blocked. luckily my work place wasnt far and I could walk after a few minutes of blockage. My boss sent me to the ER, and they didnt even do some tests or whatsover, just lumbago, pain meds and thats it. i went back to work and got some ttime off for the holidays..

just before going back to work on January 2019, I had a major flair up, but worse this time. I couldnt move, couldnt walk and would cry because of pain. the ER did finally some test where we saw #degenerativediskdisease & some serious case of lumbago. i felt bad for my boss but I couldnt come back till end of february due to pain. when it went better, i tried to come back but I just hold thru sadly 15 days before my back just got worse (while putting the baby down to sleep).

so since March 15 2019 Im in #Disability . that new kind of pain worried me so i got to see a rhumatologist, did some test and we finally get to see whats wrong with me:
#degenerativediskdisease L4-L5 L5-S1
##herniateddisk L5-S1

since then Im just doing some #physiother and #osteopath from time to time. the pain just persists and at some point of my life i just get #depress with what the heck is happening to me.

the spécialiste i saw also told me it would be better If i look for a new field of job but i just love working with children.

im just fed up of all of this.. my PT said i should continue and never give up but everything's just the same as day 1 :( sorry for the rant but thats my life now.