depo

I started depo late January maybe early February of 2020 (this year) and I had horrible side effects, weight gain, always crying, really bad anxiety, I was rude to everyone around me, me and my boyfriend argued a lot, everything was a big deal to me, didn’t have any motivation to get dressed for school, I was getting in trouble at my job for my attitude, and also very very very low libido. I felt like a completely different person. Fast Foward to now (July 2020) and I still feel the same. I ordered “Go with the Flow” hormone pills last week and they gave me horrible side effects. I’ve been having suicidal thoughts and feeling like no one cares about me. Ever since Depo Provera my mood swings have been very horrible. I still have very low libido and my boyfriend notices sex isn’t the same. He still reassured me that he loved me and he wasn’t leaving and that our relationship is deeper then sex but I still wanna make him happy. I’m 17 years old (about to turn 18 in a couple days) and it’s truly embarrassing that I’m like this. I’m so young and I personally feel like it’s a problem that my boyfriend isn’t getting the sex he deserves. I really do feel guilty. It also makes me really insecure because I feel like he could find someone better even though he reassures me that this is only temporary and I’ll get back to myself eventually... but really. will I ever? and how long could it take? #depo #depoprovera #Sadness #differentme #tired

Every month I have really bad pms. For at least a week every month, I am so sad I want to die. I was on depo shot but that gives me really bad cramps. I started paxil 2 months ago and started therapy last month, talking about sexual assault issues from my past. Things have been strained with my husband. I've been sleeping alot. Thank you for reading this. #PMDD #depo #paxil #Therapy #Bipolar