So after a year filled with horrible pain, a disectomy and a laminectomy, I still ended up rounded my year out in pain. I'm not complaining, just confused and hurt. I thought I had a chance to make the pain decrease. Instead, I might have made it worse. I've been in recovery, physical therapy and back to work. They said moving around amd walking would help me. It's making things worse. I'm so confused because it could be worse but standing straight hurts, walking a short period of time hurts, sitting hurts. I hurt lying on my back and on my side. I can't use one side of my body. Sterioids don't help. Gabapentin isn't helping. Muscle relaxers don't help. Heating pad, heat cream, and arthritis creams don't help. I can't live and work like this. I see others and I miss walking right. I was in pain but at least I could walk. Now I can barely do that. I took my health for granted and now I might never get it back. I'm grateful to be alive but now I'm wondering about my choices. Is this pain going to subside? Did I make things worse for myself. I'll just keep praying until I figure it out. #chronic pain #disectomy #laminectomy #Recovery #Endlesspain #Gabapentin #stay strong #relief #Worried #scared #DegenerativeDiscDisease #pleasehelp #betterdaysahead