Normal #normal #fepression #Bipolar
What does normal feel like? And I don’t mean normal like people will say, “Well, who wants to be normal?” People will say that to make either you or them feel better, but it usually does not help. I mean the kind of normal where not every day is a roller coaster. Not every day has its extreme jumping out if figurative plane highs and rock bottom basement lows. Normal isnt saying I’m glad to be alive one minute and then in the next minute saying somebody kill me please and meaning each utterance as much as the other. It’s not wishing you could take the place of an accident victim so they could keep living and you could die instead.
I want to feel like other people feel. I have felt like I feel and it’s not very exciting. It gets real old after a while. I feel like I might as well be asking for $10 million in the bank and to live in a super nice house and drive a real fancy car because those are about as attainable as it is for me to lead a normal life