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    Normal MRI… what now?

    My MRI results came back as normal & ENT have discharged me.

    I’m not quite sure what to do. Does this mean I have to deal with migraines for the rest of my life now? My hearing randomly going? The pain and mental attacks from the increases during colds etc?

    I know, I should be grateful that it’s normal. But I’m just feeling lost and frustrated. There’s no plan now other than just having to deal with it.

    #Sinus #ent #MRI #symptoms #ChronicPain #ChronicMigraines #Hearing #MentalHealth #Feelinglost #normal #WhatNow

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    Depression post, trauma, and trying to get better

    Today I’m trying to take ahold of what I can control in my life. Even though I struggle with severe #Depression and #Anxiety I try and do what I can to make my life as #normal as possible. Some days aren’t always so bad and I can function okay and pretty normally despite having #suicidal thoughts. Other times I have to remind myself it’s the little #victories are a huge win. Doing a load of laundry. Splashing my face with cold water and putting on deodorant and some perfume as just getting ready for the day. I’m just trying to take it one step at a time.

    I was in some pretty bad and abusive relationships. #Drug use, #Alcohol , #DomesticViolence . My last relationship I stayed with him for so long because I felt like I was damaged goods. He gave me #herpes and I felt like my life was over. I was no longer able to be “normal”, date normally ever again. I was as good as rotten fruit, even though I only had 3 boyfriends my whole life and never had any one night stands. So I stayed, even through the manipulation, the lies, the constant verbal, emotional, and physical abuse that I was receiving daily. Why did I deserve better? Why would anyone, think anything of me besides just being damaged and just bad baggage? I didn’t deserve it, hell I was such a disappointment to myself let alone I’m sure being a disappointment to my family. I was so exhausted, so depressed, so I stayed and ignored the very obvious red flags. He even had a previous domestic charge on him from a prior relationship. He even told me in such a rage later on that he did punch her when he swore up and down he didn’t. He would constantly yell at me on my lunch breaks that I was cheating on him with my coworkers. One time when I didn’t text him back within two minutes, I was the bad guy. Getting called every name in the book, because I deserved it. He would constantly kick me, choke me, punch me in the face, spit on me, throw water on me, pull my hair, grab me so I wasn’t able to leave. Grab my phone and keys so I couldn’t call or leave on my own free will. He used to do MMA for 10+ years. One time he kicked me in my leg so hard I couldn’t walk normally for a week. He’s broken my ankle, causing me to be in crutches. Chocked me so hard the blood vessels in my eye burst. I always had bruises on my body. Yet I stayed. I wanted to die.

    I never told anyone anything until I got into therapy just a few months ago. It wasn’t until my ex screamed at me for hours about how he was going to kill me, bash my head into various objects. I finally grabbed the valuables I had, my dog, and I left when he was at work.

    So now I’m in a safe place, away from him. I cut off all communication. Deleted his photos and am donating or throwing out anything we shared together. However I’m stuck with these feelings of #Guilt , #Shame and #anger . I wish I wasn’t scarred from all this but I am. I wish I could date again normally but idk that’s going to take a lot of time. I want to tell him nasty things he told me to get back at him. I’m upset at myself for not leaving when I so should have. I’m trying to deal with these emotions and trauma. So anyways I’m just sitting here folding my laundry and cleaning out my closet because so far that’s what I have control over. I’m still incredibly suicidal because I feel like I can’t be normal or date normally so the future is scary. I feel better finally and I’m glad I left. I’m just now trying to get out of this flight of fight stage, trying to better myself and maybe someday in the future someone will understand. Until then I have my loving mom my dog and my lizard. Onto my next load of laundry.
    #relationship

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    The "daymare" I am living within.

    This is a place where we can share our #Thoughts and our #feelings to one another. I have been #Trying hard to make things right with my life, and I know that it is difficult. I think a lot of us in this world feel a bit #lost right now. It is understandable because of what is happening in #ukraine and #russia at the moment. It is also #difficult to deal with #MentalHealth at the same time when you have a #MentalIllness that does not ever take a break. #Medicine can only take you so far in this world to make things #stabilized in the mind.

    When #stressful situations occur, it is more difficult for those who have mental health conditions to handle than that of someone who does not have it. It is because we are already battling a mental war trying to use our #Therapy skills to apply to the #behavioral aspect of things while the medication helps take care of the #Neurological aspect of things. However, on the right kind of #Medication we are able to handle things a lot better. Of course we will always have some kind of #Sadness in our lives, as it is not the #Goal of medication to make us #robotic . However, the medicine we take does help to ease the existing conditions we already have so that we are less #sensitive to the #Extremes we would feel without the medicine.

    I have #BipolarDisorder so this is something that is already a #Battle since I was about 16 years old. Sometimes all I can do is put on some lipstick and handle it the best way that I can, even if that means I need to take a few extra #Naps in the day. Whenever you are faced with #extreme amounts of #Stress things are not going to be easy for you. That is #normal . I just #wish that life were a lot #easier to handle though for those of us who have pre-existing mental health conditions that create more conflict and blow up the #emotional responses.

    So - If you are #Reading this, please #DistractMe and give me something to think about other than my Dad's liver #Cancer

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    Long life

    I was listening to a podcast a few days ago and suddenly had the realization that the host had an expectation of a long and happy life and welcomed that and wanted that. And that led me to contrasting it with my own thinking.

    I don't think I've ever looked forward to living a long life. I remember as a teenager having the very strong impression that I would die young. Now, when I think about my future, it just feels like this never ending inexorable time that I just have to get through somehow.

    Listening to that podcast was unsettling because it reminded me that some people want to keep living. And that it has become so normal for me to just wait for things to end since it isn't an accepted option to end things myself. And that probably shouldn't be normal. But I don't know how to change it and I don't know that I necessarily want to change it.

    Life already feels too long and I don't want it to get any longer.

    #longlife #Depression #Anxiety #Trauma #SuicidalThoughts #normal

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    Good morning, have a blessed day.#TheMighty #Depression

    I watch the #Fatheringautism videos and it sees un fair when you watch them out and about. Life seems so #normal with no masks wearing. Having social events with huge aounts people. Where in other countries/states life doesn't seem that normal yet and people are still keeping safe. Just venting. #COVID

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    I hope 2022 Will be a much better year. Full of positive happy things. I have hope. #TheMighty

    I remember going into this year, everyone was so positive and believed just because the clock smacked 12:00PM Everything be back to normal. So then my mind goes back to that. Will things and the world be #normal or is this the new normal?

    I honestly hope it will be a better year. #Depression

    Sometimes i feel like i have to justifed myself for not working. Being told that's really bad. Being judged for that. It isn't cool. Some people don't really understand. #MentalHealth

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    #tired of being a #failure #BipolarDepression

    I don't know what to do. Not sure anyone will even see this. I'm not suicidal but I am #exhausted . I want to be #normal . I want to function without constant #Pain and #Depression . Hate waiting for a #ManicEpisode just to get stuff done.

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    Is this normal #Crying #normal #Abuse #help

    Is this normal?
    My mom threatens me with a knife If I made a mistake
    She would swing the knife up to my neck neck
    She does they same thing to my brother who is only 4 years old
    I feel like they love my other brother who is the middle child
    My mom and dad seems to love him more and us less
    My brother hits my mom if he doesn't get what he wants
    If I tell my brother to stop hitting her
    My mom and dad tells me to shut up
    They praise him for no reason
    If I tell my brothers to be quiet when I do homework tell me to shut up
    Mind you they are always screaming
    They tell me how ungrateful I am

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    Normal #normal #fepression #Bipolar

    What does normal feel like? And I don’t mean normal like people will say, “Well, who wants to be normal?” People will say that to make either you or them feel better, but it usually does not help. I mean the kind of normal where not every day is a roller coaster. Not every day has its extreme jumping out if figurative plane highs and rock bottom basement lows. Normal isnt saying I’m glad to be alive one minute and then in the next minute saying somebody kill me please and meaning each utterance as much as the other. It’s not wishing you could take the place of an accident victim so they could keep living and you could die instead.

    I want to feel like other people feel. I have felt like I feel and it’s not very exciting. It gets real old after a while. I feel like I might as well be asking for $10 million in the bank and to live in a super nice house and drive a real fancy car because those are about as attainable as it is for me to lead a normal life

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    My breathing and swallowing issues are related to my vocal cord dysfunction caused years ago it’s not fair that I can’t swallow or breathe right and m

    Y cousin and family treat me like I’m crazy and made up this according to my cousin fake bs diagnosis no I told her I trust my drs my specialists pulmonologist and ent are experts in their field plus my pcp is also a pulmonologist so they know it’s not in my head and I’m not crazy who here understand my fears? Any advice?#VocalCordDysfunction #VocalCordDysfunctionFamilial #PTSD #Disability #PinchedNerve #Fibromyalgia #PolycysticOvarySyndrome #BipolarDepression #BipolarDisorder #Bipolar2Disorder #CPTSD #CPTSDinrelationships #DBT #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #BPDStigma #BorderlineStigma #Aspergers #Spoonie #SpoonieProblems #FibroFog #ADHD #Anxiety #GastroesophagealRefluxDisease #GeneralizedAnxietyDisorder #ChronicPain #ChronicIllness #Chatspace #CheckInWithMe #52SmallThings #sad #lonely #Yoga #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Disabled #Art #PinchedNerve #Depression #Flareup #Upallnight #HypothyroidismUnderactiveThyroidDisease #BPDDiagnosis #notinmyhead #normal #MightyQuestions #MightyTogether #warrior #mightywarriors #TheMightyTakeaway #TheMighty

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