Godcaresforyou

I finally have some hope trickling in.

1. God sent me a verse through a friend:
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace, which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and minds as you live in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 4:6-7)

2. God sent me a message through a friend, essentially saying He wants me to move forward, into the life he has for me, no longer captive to the past (traumas, hurts, etc.).

3. I’ve spent years between a varied cast of therapists, counselors and a psychiatrist, with little no results. What’s more, based on my experiences, I have actually come to distrust them and their processes. Some of them are just as broken as me. Some of them have hurt me. I also went to a variety of healing bible studies, which did help somewhat and a support group (which was great, but I quit partway through). Another friend recently encouraged me to go back to the support group, saying she did it three times and got different things out of it each time. She also encouragement me to seek out counseling again and that it took her six counselors to find the right one. I got discouraged because the support group isn’t until September (they run it twice a year. I just missed the other one AGAIN - happened the first time too.) Then, I learned the church counseling program was full (they have scholarships for those with financial trouble). I have no money for a counselor, so I was like, what the heck, God? The counseling department sent me a list of referrals. With no expectation of response, I sent similar emails outlining my situation to a nearby Christian shelter with counseling services and to the only counselor on the list with EMDR (trauma protocol) training. Her regular fee is $75, so I thought for sure she wouldn’t meet with me, let alone take me on as a client. As it turned out, God picked her out for me. Her family didn’t have the help they needed during their crisis and her children still suffer to this day. (But she has gotten the help she needs to recover.) So she agreed to meet with me weekly, and even provide a fidget toy, for FREE.

After MONTHS of feeling like I’m aimlessly wandering the desert, I FINALLY feel like I have the direction and help I need to move forward.

Thank you, Daddy! [Yahweh]

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