I'm just so tired of feeling like there's constantly something wrong. I want the baseline of just good. I would even be okay with a baseline of "fine" but not these constant swings in emotions.
Today my #Boyfriend feels like he’s in another country; he’s had his face buried in his phone and he’s been texting novels all day. No acknowledgement of me, even when I’ve been talking directly to him. I’m not aware of any issues between us....so it just hurts because I feel like I’m stuck on a little island all by myself /:
I’ve been nothing but loving as far as how I try to reach out and I haven’t even spoken w him about this (obv 🤦🏼♀️lmfao) so I feel like I can’t make any progress in calming my #Anxiety either. #ifeelcrazy #AnxietyAttack #lonley
I have always thought of myself as a stellar employee. I’ve always been a hard worker, maintained long term employment, etc. BUT- as I get older I can’t deny how much bipolar disorder affects me in terms of employment. I am overly emotional when stupid things come up- I take everything little thing that happens and I over analyze it and beat myself up. I am overdramatic with my bosses. There are days at a time that I try to get my shifts covered because I can’t manage to do anything. then there are other weeks that I offer to do anything and everything and I kick ass. I know my managers are over it. They are sick of me making things so serious . I never ever thought of myself as someone affected by my illness- or rather- never wanted to admit it. I’m ion my 3rd job since moving to this new area- and every single one started with the company being blown away by me....and ended with me quitting over the treatment /lack of appreciation. I start off awesome and then within a few months I make a mess of it. Imreally upset with myself. I tell myself not to care and just do my job and leave. I’m a server- who gives a shit, right? managers are assholes sometimes- but it’s like I can’t control it. Bipolar is affecting my employment and I can’t figure out how to do this. #ifeelcrazy
#BipolarDisorder
I have picked my skin for years. I currently see a psychiatrist and am in therapy. It seems like nothing helps. I have a couple of very embarrassing spots. One on my face and one on my hand. Neither of them can I hide. I ordered my Starbucks on the phone app so that I wouldn't have to be seen by the barista.
I feel so helpless. I cannot seem to stop. What helps you break the cycle of skin picking. By cycle I mean the pattern. I have gone months without picking but then it starts back and I can't stop. Please help.
#Dermatillomania #OCD #Bipolar #ifeelcrazy
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