Lately I’ve had so much I feel going on these past few weeks about. I started going to horse therapy the beginning on June and before that I hadn’t been around horses like that since I was little. There’s a story behind of why I’m scared to ride horses anymore, but that’s not related to this thought. With horse therapy the person that’s working with me tries to use #Christianity to try help me. I understand it some yet it’s I still can’t concept how to “let go” my anxiety, I feel I should know how I’ve been in regular mh therapy for a few years by now.

Then yet it’s the #Loneliness that’s been going on, and I have like no friends except one….. I can hang out with and talk to that live close to me. I’m not sure where I’m really going with this or getting at, it’s like I feel people keep trying to get me to go out to some like self help groups to make friends. But it’s like I want another friend I can hang out with, but yet don’t cause it’s so exhausting even though I tend to crave that purpose or whatever it’s called. On top of all that I’ve been dealing with some physical health issues, of what was contact dermatitis is now possibly a bacterial rash. Might have to go see a dermatologist to get it figured out if it’s not healing fully, but trying different meds along with my antidepressant anxiety and adhd med.
#overwhelmed #Autism #Depression #Anxiety #ADHD #whatsnormalanymore #mentallyexhausted #lonely #Feelingtoomuch #inthedarkness