I would say that I’ve been having moderate to serious IBD/ IBS issues & with that chronic pain issues for a few months now. It’s been REALL. I also have 4 kids (11,8,5,2) and we all have cabin fever. This year has been mentally challenging to us all. I think more so for our kids. We also live in Arizona so doing things even outside has been unbearable since June. Near the end of September I was diagnosed with CRPS. I already knew I had it but, just took a while to get a proper diagnosis. Pretty much, unless you’re dying, medical care is garbage in this state. Lately I’ve been feeling so guilty for putting all the extra chores, & over all “home duties” burden on the hubby & the kids. It’s been such a struggle to feel motivated let alone gather the strength to even vacuum a room or the whole house without bad pain. I find it so annoying. I’m a type A but, my body can’t physically keep up with my mental stamina or mental ability. It has been so obnoxious. I see so much that needs done, and it drives me mad not being able to do more than very simple & light duties. Our other car broke down in January so I haven’t even had my car ALL year. I feel being more sick than normal these past few months has made my helplessness feel too real. I used to be a very independent person who was capable of a lot. Now it’s all gone to shit again. I know it’s a phase. I know I’ll rebound. My body just isn’t cooperating the way I wish it would. That, and the forgetfulness. I feel as if my brain is turning to mush due to the lack of REAL conversation. I am getting so irritable because I don’t go anywhere. I have never felt so stuck in my life. It fucking sucks. I am so ready to have a momcation ALONE!! Just quiet. No kids. No hubby. No pets. Just quiet with internet & some peanut M&M’s and a bed all to myself with the AC cranked down low as hell! That sounds like heaven right now. #Parenting #Motherhood #CRPSWarrior #CRPS #IBD #IBS #ChronicPain #AutoimmuneDisease #LeaveMommyAlone