Losingfaith

I’ve been dealing with mental and emotional exhaustion and I don’t know where God is in all of this. I feel like this storm has no end in sight and goes on forever but I know it has to stop some time. I want to throw in the towel and give God a piece of my mind because I can’t take it anymore and I want out. I thought once I came to Christ everything would be a little better but instead I fight with depression and anxiety almost daily. Why does the Bible say God will comfort those who believe in him when all I seem to get is more anxiety and depression!? Why won’t he just take my pain away already? I thought God was a God of love but why am I so mentally and emotionally drained? Why won’t he just make these demons go away? What the heck did I do to deserve this!? Oh yea I challenged him to change my life and I forgot you can’t challenge God in my ignorance and arrogance. I dared him out of anger and hatred that’s what I did now I feel damned forever because of it. I feel like I’m like a little kid asking their parent a whole of questions but half the time I feel like he doesn’t answer. #Losingfaith #Depression #SuicidalThoughts #Godisincontrol #FeelingAlone #AngeratGod

I had the worst experience with the mental health system this week. I went to the ER for severe medication with drawl as I was switching meds I thought it was serotonin syndrome. I had told them why I wanted to fix my medication in the first space ( I mentioned suicidal ideation). That was all they could hear and had me wait 15 hours to talk to a crisis counselor. I waited 36 hours to only be out of the ER only to be places in an addiction treatment center and not one for anxiety which I voluntarily opted for until I found the right meds. I’m feeling so much loss of faith

#Impatient #Anxiety #Depression #Losingfaith