FeelingAlone

I’m so tired of feeling like this….tbh I don’t think my relationship is gonna last cuz I’m fed up with my bf and his lies|cheating😡 #FeelingAlone #toxicrelationship

I don’t know why I continue putting myself through this bs…. I truly love this man but don’t think the feeling is mutual…Why is he still with me??!? #Depression #FeelingAlone #Lovelost #Selfhate

Everyone wants to give me resources, not knowing how exhausting it is to sort through them all and reach out to them all, only to be refused or told to call or contact somewhere else. I feel burned out on even trying to help myself.

I know that I have to "do the work," I just wish I had someone helping me more than giving me endless resources to research and navigate.

#imtired #burnedout #Tiredofbeingtired #Health #MentalHealth #exhaustion #FeelingAlone

Having a disability/invisible one, can be very scary for you don't know what your future will hold. Especially when you move to a new state and that the government sucks at helping individuals, getting a job and would require some adaptabilities for you in the job. It is like, why do I even exist, just to stay at home and do nothing and rot. I can't wait to see a counselor, hopefully this will help with my depression and anxiety, that I'm not alone; like The Mighty does. Also getting SSI, takes a long time to get processed, even when you have an invisible disability. Like me you have to explain and do test, to make sure you're not faking a disability, which I do get. It just sucks, sucks and more sucks; I don't wish upon this on anybody, not even my enemies.

Thank you for letting me vent on here, I feel somewhat better.

#Depression #FeelingAlone #invisisbledisability #Anxiety #MightyTogether

Loving Myself through Chronic Pain
#Ileostomy #ChronicPain #FeelingAlone #Nosupport #MedicallyDismissed
Today I will give myself Grace and Love Myself right where I’m at, here…in this moment. I’ve spent years “hating myself”, from failed surgeries, to chronic pain, depression, anxiety, feeling dismissed by doctors/surgeons and the rejection that creates. But today I’m choosing to love me, to give myself Grace, to realize I did not choose this life path rather it chose me. My days do not look like any normal day, any day. That’s okay. I’ve come to accept me, my limitations along with my unquieness. On days I miss the old me, the healthy me, I remind myself life is a journey not a sprint. I take my time to reflect, to feel, to allow those negative feelings to be brought into light so I can deal with them, heal from them. I no longer am running from my reality. Rather I am facing it, the good, the bad and the ugly. Allowing myself to heal from the trauma I’ve faced. Indeed it’s not overnight, sometimes it may be 1 step forward 2 steps back, other days it’s moment by moment… but…. Today I’m choosing to love myself a little more, a little stronger, a little harder. Leaning into acceptance.

Anyone want to talk about BPD or any of the hashtags with me? Would be so thankful to know I’m not alone with some situations I go through :) #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Autism #FeelingAlone #SuicideIdeation