Feeling stuck #needtovent
I’m so tired of feeling like this….tbh I don’t think my relationship is gonna last cuz I’m fed up with my bf and his lies|cheating😡 #FeelingAlone #toxicrelationship
I’m so tired of feeling like this….tbh I don’t think my relationship is gonna last cuz I’m fed up with my bf and his lies|cheating😡 #FeelingAlone #toxicrelationship
I don’t know why I continue putting myself through this bs…. I truly love this man but don’t think the feeling is mutual…Why is he still with me??!? #Depression #FeelingAlone #Lovelost #Selfhate
Everyone wants to give me resources, not knowing how exhausting it is to sort through them all and reach out to them all, only to be refused or told to call or contact somewhere else. I feel burned out on even trying to help myself.
I know that I have to "do the work," I just wish I had someone helping me more than giving me endless resources to research and navigate.
#imtired #burnedout #Tiredofbeingtired #Health #MentalHealth #exhaustion #FeelingAlone
Do you ever feel like you're doing something wrong when you actually feel happy?
#MightyTogether #question #FeelingAlone
Pic of the happiest I've ever seen myself...
Is that #narcissistic to say? I don't think I look good, I just think I look happy.
Having a disability/invisible one, can be very scary for you don't know what your future will hold. Especially when you move to a new state and that the government sucks at helping individuals, getting a job and would require some adaptabilities for you in the job. It is like, why do I even exist, just to stay at home and do nothing and rot. I can't wait to see a counselor, hopefully this will help with my depression and anxiety, that I'm not alone; like The Mighty does. Also getting SSI, takes a long time to get processed, even when you have an invisible disability. Like me you have to explain and do test, to make sure you're not faking a disability, which I do get. It just sucks, sucks and more sucks; I don't wish upon this on anybody, not even my enemies.
Thank you for letting me vent on here, I feel somewhat better.
#Depression #FeelingAlone #invisisbledisability #Anxiety #MightyTogether
Do you ever feel like this, or is it just me...??
#Depression #Anxiety #SuicidalIdeation #struggling #FeelingAlone
Loving Myself through Chronic Pain
#Ileostomy #ChronicPain #FeelingAlone #Nosupport #MedicallyDismissed
Today I will give myself Grace and Love Myself right where I’m at, here…in this moment. I’ve spent years “hating myself”, from failed surgeries, to chronic pain, depression, anxiety, feeling dismissed by doctors/surgeons and the rejection that creates. But today I’m choosing to love me, to give myself Grace, to realize I did not choose this life path rather it chose me. My days do not look like any normal day, any day. That’s okay. I’ve come to accept me, my limitations along with my unquieness. On days I miss the old me, the healthy me, I remind myself life is a journey not a sprint. I take my time to reflect, to feel, to allow those negative feelings to be brought into light so I can deal with them, heal from them. I no longer am running from my reality. Rather I am facing it, the good, the bad and the ugly. Allowing myself to heal from the trauma I’ve faced. Indeed it’s not overnight, sometimes it may be 1 step forward 2 steps back, other days it’s moment by moment… but…. Today I’m choosing to love myself a little more, a little stronger, a little harder. Leaning into acceptance.
Finally was able to eat today, it has been 3 days. I always here the comments “are you going to eat today” or “well you need to eat” or “your a skeleton”… I know it’s a coping mechanism for them to make humor of it. Needless to say it’s not that I don’t want to eat, it’s that I literly am so sick right now that I can’t stomach food. How do you lead by example when your teenage daughter literly said “it’s not the cool thing to do, eating isn’t cool” but all you want to do is run to the bathroom or curl up in a ball in the dark. #FeelingAlone #Anxiety #Depression #MixedConnectiveTissueDiseaseMCTD #RaynaudsDisease #Trauma #Stepmom
I’m sinking in sludge, my mind is so chaotic, overflowing, disorganized, my anxiety & depression are at its peak. I can’t even try to prioritize 🥵🤯
I’m broker than broke since February & have no money to buy food.
My cat (Viggo) is sick, he’s my rock, my zen master, my sweet love. We are waiting for the biopsy results & then we will find out more but he’s vomiting daily since the end of March & has lost so much weight & all I feel are bones when I hold him. 😭
I have no one to help me & don’t know what to do. I think I’m finally losing it.
So, so very tired of trying & fighting & hoping.
#lost #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #ChronicDepression #FeelingAlone
Anyone want to talk about BPD or any of the hashtags with me? Would be so thankful to know I’m not alone with some situations I go through :) #BorderlinePersonalityDisorder #Depression #Anxiety #ObsessiveCompulsiveDisorder #Autism #FeelingAlone #SuicideIdeation